You are NOT a failure. Look at how often I have to scrape, skip meals and crowdfund for my critters. Would you call me a failure? If I'm not, then neither are you.
Gregory. You are NOT a "failure". You've enabled your pets to experience more and higher-quality life than they *ever* would have without you. You've published *multiple* well-regarded papers in your field and mentored I don't know how many students to their doctorates. Depression is a fucking liar.
That is a very hard way to feel (like a failure). I’ve felt that way too at times though, and it’s the depression and anxiety talking in my case, and I highly suspect it is in yours too. And I have felt that way about care for my older kiddo too. Should have been in a different school situation 1/n
…that we could in no way shape or form afford, or we should have quit jobs sold house and moved school districts which we also could not afford. For about 3 years we lived hour to hour, basically. And it was especially hard because we lived where other folks had money to burn. Please, I am 2/n
Asking (pleading) for you to find a pro to talk to. Commit to a few months. Get in some meds, just like you would if it were a heart condition. Most areas have some sliding scale providers. If you are currently teaching at a university then they likely do. It sounds like things are 3/n…
Genuinely tough right now, which means it’s hard to even know where to begin. Getting help to organize your thoughts to work through this can make things a lot less overwhelming. If you can, at least do a 14-day trial of Headspace and their Anxiety series is *really* good. It got me through a 4/n
Cancer diagnosis where I could not see past the end of my nose without a panic attack.
I am glad you are able to reach out to folks. Know that others have been in places where they couldn’t manage even that. Take things one step at a time and find help.
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I am glad you are able to reach out to folks. Know that others have been in places where they couldn’t manage even that. Take things one step at a time and find help.