I’ve always tended towards depression and it’s just kicking my fucking ass lately. I can get maybe one good day every couple of weeks and then it’s just back to gritting my teeth to get out of bed.
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I know everything sucks, but this morning I saw this little car in Portland and was inspired by your photography to take a picture, though all I have is my phone and it’s nowhere as good as your photos.
I think the walking thing you've gotten up to is great, and I also enjoy seeing some cars I just don't get to see around here.
I have trouble with it, too - I've spent my whole life trying to *know all the things* all the time but that isn't helping anymore. I need to know less, and I'm trying to.
If you were sandblasting a car to remove the paint you could see when you hit bare metal; it's the same principle here except there's no visuals to guide you.
You have to avoid blasting away your own hope & sense of purpose while staying *reasonably* well-informed. You have to find that balance.
I've been in a similar boat since January and IMO the worst thing about it is the pressure to make today one of the good days and make up the deficit of lost productivity. The dread of falling further behind ends up being a self fulfilling prophecy.
solidarity. been weeks since i felt "rested" no matter how much or how little i sleep, and i'm just exhausted all the time. inability to predict the future is a massive stressor :( you're in good company finding it harder to get ahold of life right now.
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It also sucks to mainline everything that is happening all the time *as it happens* & allowing that info flood to dominate your every waking hour.
Disconnect. Be less online. Focus on the things you CAN do, help the people you CAN help, & avoid drowning yourself
I have trouble with it, too - I've spent my whole life trying to *know all the things* all the time but that isn't helping anymore. I need to know less, and I'm trying to.
Your writing kicks ass, you kick ass, and we're going to make it through this.
You have to avoid blasting away your own hope & sense of purpose while staying *reasonably* well-informed. You have to find that balance.