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Now empowered with 33% More Boundaries. Certified Zentangle Teacher (CZT), Writer, Blogger. Doing all that stuff with brain cancer and generalized anxiety disorder while learning how to write left-handed. STL Metro East she/her emilysuess.com/blog
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#3GoodThings 1. The rain has made the flowers in the yard go gonzo 2. Ollie fell asleep in my wheelchair and was adorable 3. I only have one appointment tomorrow and if things go like I hope they do, my primary will put in an order for a custom foot brace that makes it easier to walk

Oh! And I rescheduled my dentist appointment. I was on the phone three times today! I prefer online scheduling for appointments anyway, but I really hate talking when I'm recovering from a panic attack.

Now that anxiety brain has taken a seat, I'm prepared to remind myself that I ascended two steps yesterday. Another BFD.

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You'd think Elon had left town with Melania. Today's been funny in the pettiest of ways. I'm here for it. 🤣

My hands are screaming and swollen, but I did some things today to keep the anxiety from settling in too deep and distract from the discomfort ✅ Rescheduled scans ✅ Rescheduled oncology appt ✅ LegXercise ✅ Wheelchair transfers ✅ PT exercises ✅ Left-handed writing ✅ Ate peanut butter cups

I tried cursive as best I could remember from grade school. It's not how I would write with my dominant hand because it's hard and I don't want the comparison yet. 🤪

Finally got scans rescheduled. Now awaiting return call from oncology. All this wasted energy is why I hate rescheduling appointments, and why I hate missing them for frickin' panic attacks. On the whole, panicking is massively inconvenient.

Cached US Kindle giveaway: 6 copies of THE TEN THOUSAND DOORS OF JANUARY by @alixeharrow.bsky.social, which I have, and have started to read but never finished (got distracted by books and life events and then lost it in various iPad shenanigans). I've given it out before! #KindleBookGiveaway

Gotta love Cookie Monster! 🩷

2/5 practice transfers from wheelchair to bed. Not quite the same as wheelchair to dentist chair, but hopefully close enough. Break for lunch and HR to chill TF out.

Because I have MRI and CT to reschedule, and I want them on the same day I have to wait on a callback. I got the callback, but no one there. I'm so tired.

Rescheduled my dentist appointment for next week instead of tmrw. As much as I want all of this to be over, i'm not doing that to myself.

Holy crap! The hospital refunded my prepayment for the scans that didn't happen without me having to call someone in billing. I am shook.

How I'm doing this morning.

I'm awake and in pain. Do not want.