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Jewish poet; literature professor; crafter; fiber artist; editor. Queer, trans, disabled Iowan. You probably know me by another name. hmu for freelance editing, mss critique, sensitivity reader gigs. https://jewishpoet.substack.com/
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This year's chemo is so much rougher (and hopefully more efficacious) than last year's. Daily pills and every three weeks, and infusion. Just when I start to feel a bit better, it's time for the next round. #FuckCancer

My cats knocked a huge tumbler of iced coffee onto my laptop a few weeks ago, and the keyboard stopped working. I've been using an external keyboard but mostly just using my phone as much as possible to let the computer fully dry out and now--the keyboard works again! Hooray! Cannot afford a new one

Also, I feel like shit, and I live alone so I still have to drive myself to treatment and feed myself and take out the garbage. I barely have the energy to get through the day, let alone offer cogent thoughts on geopolitical events. Sorry/not sorry. I just can't handle the news right now.

I didn't expect the anger that comes with cancer, either. So much anger about so many things. Anger that, on top of chronic illnesses I got cancer. Anger that I'm going through this alone, and ppl are too freaked out abt cancer to talk about it with me, and all I want to do is talk and not be alone.

Cancer is so lonely. I have trouble sleeping, so I just lie awake and wonder what I did wrong to end up alone through all of this. I am divorced, and I don't miss that abusive relationship, but I never anticipated I would be so alone at middle age.

My friend Karrie needs help raising money for meds and to save up to be able to leave Iowa, which is not safe for trans folks anymore.

Falling in my garage was really not on my agenda this week, and it has messed me up. So much pain on top of chronic pain, hence why I started the comfort show rewatch. It is, actually, comforting.

I have to do something while I’m so sick I can barely leave the house. 🙃

I’ve been rewatching Grey’s Anatomy, a show I have been watching since the beginning and it holds so many memories for me.

Excellent news yesterday, though: I was offered courses to teach for every term next year at my local uni! So relieved bc not having that income this semester has been devastating for my finances.

Forgot my headphones at the dentist. Sensory hell with a TV, radio, and the dental machines.

today I'm surviving out of spite.

millennials realizing they're 38 years old

I'm mad about posting here, but I'm heading back into treatment for my endometrial cancer, so I am once again asking for your support. gofund.me/95dfa98d

tariffs imposing a white supremacist hegemony nobody fucking wants, even on your fucking taste buds, brought to you by the guy who puts ketchup on his well-done steaks

Even though I’m Jewish now, I still really love Easter candy. Something about the ratio of chocolate to filling (eg peanut butter) makes it so good.

Finally got my taxes done. Every year it is my dyscalculia autistic adhd nightmare but I did it!

Some days I wake up so cloudy-headed it feels hard to muddle through the basics of life. Other days I wake up normal and it’s so wonderful. Today is a cloudy day.

Waking up in so much pain day after day is so exhausting.

This Is the top story on @motherjones.com, as it should be on every news site. Millions of people turned out to oppose Tump/Musk/facism yesterday. www.motherjones.com/politics/202...

Trump's antisemitism agenda isn't about the Jews. I wrote about how the president and his allies are using the pretext of protecting Jews to protect their policies from criticism, while advancing an agenda that most American Jews oppose. Gift link:

lol love this 👨‍🍳💋🤌

As an adjunct prof, I do think there is an antisemitism problem on campus, but it’s not abt ceasefire protests. Not exactly. Should probably write abt this sometime in a longer form than a skeet.

B”H I slept last night! Still feel awful, but a well-rested awful, so back to my chronically ill normal. 😊🙃

Sure Kelly Clarkson’s cover (& wink) was good, but The Butchies cover of “Your Love” was the first one I fell in love with.

every damn time

Great to see the #MEAction protest! ❤️ #LongCOVIDAwarenessDay

I've been in a pretty intense amount of pain the past few weeks, which my doctors assured me was normal pain related to my endometrial cancer. Even cancer patients can't get pain relief. It sucks.

My Purim curse continues. I have been sick on Purim every year since I first started celebrating Jewish holidays and it stinks. At least this year it’s a migraine and not COVID.

huh i wonder why the trump administration lied about releasing the full epstein files

Things are bleak, but there’s also good news: 1) Montana refused to ban mRNA vaccines! tinyurl.com/bdftjezm 2) CA is fighting trans healthcare bans! tinyurl.com/yyadcnsv 3) Public outcry scared ‘em off firing parks employees! tinyurl.com/yck9yb7s Stay loud. Demand more from your local leaders.

Evergreen skeet: my tummy hurts and I’m mad at the government.

Today on my Substack, I wrote about messy grief and crash theory: open.substack.com/pub/jewishpo...

This is an excellent piece (read it before you comment), that includes a quote from my wonderful rabbi.

Pritzker: If we don’t want to repeat history, then for god’s sake, in this moment, we better be strong enough to learn from it.

It is BS that in 2025 it takes a week to transfer money from one bank to another! It should be instant. It’s just computers talking to each other. Can someone explain this to me like I’m a child bc wtaf.

Y’know what doesn’t need electricity? Needlepoint!

Power went out and the electric company knows (most of the town is impacted) but my anxious mind immediately goes into survival mode. In reality I think I’ll just go back to bed for a bit.

Wrote about the morally vacuous, strategically unsound (and also wrong!) anti-“woke”diagnosis everyone’s still sticking with, even in the midst of civil rights apocalypse.

My #bookoftheday Kissing Girls On Shabbat by Sara Glass.

Stayed offline all Shabbat and read a Jewish book and worked on a Purim-themed needlepoint canvas. It was a lovely day.

Interesting. USAID helped to end apartheid in South Africa. When that happened, Musk’s family fled, & now he worries about white birth rates & gives Nazi salutes. 🤷

Evergreen skeet: my tummy hurts and I’m mad at the government.

Remember — the first lie of fascism is inevitability. And it is a lie. We can fight back.