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Gaming and Sports Nerd. Wannabe streamer. Yorkshire’s Own. PDRL player for Hull KR. Bleed Derby County, New Orleans Saints, LA Clippers, Bradford Bulls and Team Envyus All views are my own
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It's crazy how I'm looking at people who I literally know tried to ruin lives then have the audacity to turn around and gush about it being Men's mental health month in the Us.... You don't give a fuck about us you vile cunt. You have actively tried to ruin mens mental health in fact. Rest in piss

Im still utterly thrown by my last session. Not just what was said but how it was said. And also the idea that im just supposed to be ‘done with this now’ Is this how normal brains work? A bad thing happens and you just….don’t care? Im so lost man

The introvert urge to stay up far too late because it's the only time you can be alone

May your chat be always filled with kindness. May you always have lurkers. May your game never crash. May your model never freeze. May your mic never be muted when speaking. May streaming always be fun. For my fellow vtubers and content creators. May we keep creating. ✨💖✨

RT this post if you're a streamer ❤️

Idk man My counsellor probably thinks im taking on to our sessions really well just because I had 2 good evenings in between 1 and 2 Yet actually it’s just added extra self doubt into an already broken body. I just wanted to help people and make people happy. Why am I the bad guy that suffers?

Turning replies off for a little bit. Already got a couple interested so going through the list and will reopen this post if I need too

Alright artists and people much more tech savvy than me. Im hoping by posting on here I’m avoiding all the bots. Im a former twitch streamer looking to get back into it. When I eventually do, im thinking of setting up as a #Vtuber or #PNGtuber. Anyone any advice on where to start? Price ideas etc?

So I guess I’ve started depression eating now. Thats a new one, sure nothing could go bad with this

Im losing my fucking mind man. So much to say but nobody that I either want to burden or that can truly help me if I tell. No drug that does anything neither. What am I supposed to do with myself when I’ve exhausted all the options

It's real crazy that about a year on now from all the bullshit. I spend my days fighting to survive against myself. That mf saw no repercussions and is probably actively doing better now then they ever were. Where is the justice? Where is the karma?

Everyones going so mental over the Switch 2 preorders. Ima just wait for the hype to die down a smidge, besides I have a secret weapon to fall back on when he gets back 😉

Are you fucking serious? Not my discord please god

Please stop leaving these choices in my hands I'm fucking useless at making them

I forgot about this part of living alone where i get out of a shower and forget to function. Ive just looked up and realise Ive been sat on my floor in my towel for about 35 mins now

I hate getting really bad depression surges on matchdays because on the outside it makes it look like it’s because of the results or whatever. When in actual fact quite a lot of the time going to watch my favourite teams is all thats actually worth waking up for

OC Lore train 😈 explain your OC's lore in the worst way possible Lovable asshole who went down a dark path makes things right thanks to either a golden retriever partner or someone that stands up to his bullshit.

Without saying your age, who was your first animated crush? (Yes the fire nation outfit was better but how can you say no to those eyes?)

See now THIS is some good weather! 17-18 degrees, bright blue sky, nice breeze, can smell a couple of bbqs going. Not melting my skin off hot or cooking me in an oven when I’m inside If summer was more like this id like it more!

Watching my Therapists eyes bulge as I explain things in my fucked up brain and then hearing her basically try and ship me off to a different department at the earliest opportunity is so unintentionally painful. Like just say you can't help me and i'm doomed like I'd understand at this point

I miss Voice Acting so much

I hate my brain being wired the way that it is. One of my best friends just locked down a house with his mrs, how fucking amazing. Yet here I am….

If you see this, post your favourite Pokemon! Nothing, I repeat nothing will top my bitey boi

Ive been catching up on watching abridged series again. Which means I wanna VA again so baaaaaaaaaad. But also the traumaaaaaaaaaaa associated with it has me locked uppppppp

"if I just work hard enough, eventually I'll make it" No. cause if you don't make it that means you didn't work hard enough. And that isn't fair to your efforts. there are so many factors outside of your hands. So much success is luck, and failure is not always your fault. cut yourself some slack.

I miss my old friendgroup and am still kinda pissed off my new therapist seemed to imply that we're just gonna ignore any and all past trauma's

I ain't ever seen one person talk about this game except the YTber that put me on when it was still in development. I play through it like once a year minimum

Just done my favourite part of the mental health process where you fill in questionnaires and simultaneously you find out how bad it actually is and the people reading the answers realise how fucked they are with my case. Could be in a padded cell here soon I can feel it.

Some proper dense slags out there. Like stop opening your trap like you do your legs you annoying orange looking ass

So to sum up the family post tea discussion. I apparently see myself doing much better and higher things but im not qualified or skilled enough to do said things so therefore tough Ace and there’s any wonder why Im mentally fucked

Fucking hen and stag do’s are the worst. Shut the fuck up you loud alcoholic assholes

If I ever get my mental back enough to start streaming again I might look into vtubing you know. All of them seem to popping off, and it seems to be a good way of doing facial expressions but not doing face reveals? Idk man just costs so much

Growing up I never believed I could ever end up in more pain than my years spent in physical pain attached to wires in hospital beds. Yet here I am. It’s 4:15 in the morning and the emotional and mental pain I go through makes me WISH I could go back to hospitals. Do you know how fucked that is?

Too many people out there claiming we should grow up and that video games are a waste of time. Well it's because of video games that I can bear the horrors of life, gain inspiration for my works, be a part of a community, and experience creativity unlike any other. That's why I play video games!

First time Ive been left home alone for an extended period of time since my horrible stint of living alone. Day fucking 1 and I just stubbed my fucking toe so bad I think I broke it…. How am I so fucking bad at this?