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Is this what the youth would call a “crash out”?

You ever just feel so stressed and disregulated that you can’t like, eat?? Every time I try and eat I just get sick. I know I need to eat but it’s hard to force yourself especially when you’re already so stressed. All I can keep down is water.

I think if you're the kind of person who thinks that doing fake therapy with chat GPT is preferable to talking to a trained and accredited human being... that's probably something you should bring up in (real) therapy

never trust how you feel about your life after 9pm but the self-loathing is such a perpetual part of it that i think i'm allowed to be frustrated anyway

Today feels like a day where I’m gonna sit at my PC and draw and journal and process shit because I woke up feeling pretty sad but I’m not gonna let that ruin my whole day.

I wish I was out at cons rn but like, I’m really just excited to get a job soon. Need to get that bag ASAP

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the comic that got me into webcomics like ten years ago #art #comic

Why won’t it stop rainingggg I wanna go on a bike ride aaaaaAAAAAHHH

A few days ago I biked past someone cutting their front lawn with one of those ground sickles and I was like “fuck yeah dude” and he was like “fuck yeah” and I biked off and it was a good interaction

Foxy was waiting for me to set up the switch and sit down on the couch with her, and then I brought out two blankets and covered each of us up. Now we play switch together.

Gonna sound corny, but this is something I tell myself a lot, They need you hopeless. They need you sick, sad, angry, and above all hopeless. So doing anything that’s fun, stimulating, fulfilling is an act of rebellion. Go have some fucking fun and be a rebel!

I’m sad that I forgot my hiking backpack at his place because I’ve been invited to go camping with some friends next month and it was like, my main bag for any travelling. I also forgot my bike panniers which I’m still kicking myself about like ALL I wanted to do was go bike packing this summer FUCK

Ok now time to organize my desk! *starts vomiting blood*

I don’t think any trend or shift in fashion could take 2016 winged liner away from me. I’m gonna be 65 still drawing on the wings. Nothing can stop me

I took a really nice walk in the rain. Saw a duck and a bunny!

Aaaahhh every time I’m out and I spot a friend I haven’t seen in a long time like AAAAHHH I LOVE BEING HOME!!! I love being in my city!! It gives me so much happy energy eeeeee

It’s crazy how like, all this stuff he used to get after for me never doing I’m just getting done easy now?? It’s almost like it’s easier to use your executive functioning skills when you feel safe and aren’t constantly stressed out. My cup finally has capacity. I can breathe a little.

I promise things will get less crazy in the next few days. There is no “right” way to cope when you experience trauma like that, when you’re afraid and exhausted for so long. I’m feeling a lot of feelings and I don’t want to feel ashamed of that.

Furthermore, I’m allowed to be angry. I’m allowed to be ugly about it. You will not silence me, what you did hurt me and you’re finally seeing actual consequences for shit you’ve been doing for FAR too long. I have no idea how you feel but part of me doesn’t even want to know.

lol Erik if you’re still creeping my posts, change your profile pic on insta to Hubert. I don’t even give a shit like I know you’re gonna do it and that’s why I’m posting without locking down my accounts. If you see my posts, haha I’m right and you suck and that’s all the attention you’re gonna get.

It’s incredibly funny what people will say about your ex once you’re not with them anymore. Like, why is it that everyone I know and most people in his family got bad vibes and feel like he has “psychopath eyes” but I was the only one fooled?? I thought he was autistic but uhh… nope just abusive!

Yesterday was a really hard depression day which, although shitty, feels like it was needed. Today I’m doing a big clean and reorganize of my place which feels really great.

youtu.be/IsqPLDwTd8o?... LEGIT 👏👏👏

It was rainy today so I spent way too much of it doomscrolling which isn’t great. Maybe tomorrow if it’s not too bad I’ll go for a bike ride. Heck, maybe I’ll just bike in the rain. Sounds refreshing lol

I don’t think I mentioned it earlier but I already wrote a resume and cover letter and applied for a job in my field?? And I’m pretty proud of that. I’ll be applying for the other two I was looking at tomorrow, and if both of those fail I’ll throw resumes at retail places. Again so nice to be home

I want a fuckin SNACK

My depression snack today was crackers with shredded cheese on them, dipped in chili garlic sauce HAHA

Got approved for counselling and some grocery money from victim services woo That helps out a lot with my mental health and just like, surviving. I’m so grateful.

youtu.be/SmNIyhzoWKU?...

youtu.be/lRXH1l2m68s?... This is exactly it.