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She/Her • Neurodivergent • Disabled • 35+; No minors, please • LGBTQIA+ Friendly • Medicinal Stoner • Happily Taken • Gaming account: @kellophane.bsky.social • Banner: Honeybear, my cat •
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Been slowly rearranging my room to make it easier to get in & out of bed, even with the laptop + bed desk on it. Finally found a good use for the drawer on the bed desk, too! Holds my AC/fan remotes +yl my lip balm. ^^ Want to get a hook or holder of some sort for both my cane + grabber.

And we're adding Fibromyalgia to the list. I want a refund on my body, this is bullshit. My new nickname should just be alphabet soup. ADHD, PTSD, bipolar, schizophrenia, endometriosis, psoriasis, psoriatic arthritis, rheumatoid arthritis, and now fibromyalgia. FML.

Appointment later this afternoon with my Rheumatologist and I am both excited and dreading it.

The fun part of having severe arthritis is when my mom helps me get changed, sees how swollen my joints are, and exclaims in horror that I have to get my legs elevated right that second. Like... did you think they wouldn't be swollen when I can barely walk? But I really appreciate her help, truly.

Ever been so high you start sobbing because you killed a bug & a literal blood stain was on the paper towel where you crushed its head? I feel like a fucking monster. I am so sorry, tiny bug. 😭😭😭

Great gifts for yourself and/or and Foxes In Love fans!

There have got to be some psychological implications that I now get drowsy when I go to the ER. Now that I'm home again, I'm wide awake, lol. Also, I was right and it is oral thrush. Please end me.

Pretty sure the antibiotics+ steroids gave me oral thrush. More than likely going to the ER again later. Wonder if they're as sick of me as I am...

I wish to rip my vocal cords out so I can no longer feel the immense amount of pain they are in.

Pampered myself with a mini spa night. Deep conditioned my hair, did a hydrating face mask, and used my new scalp massager. Honestly the scalp massager gets a huge approval based on how much easier it made washing my hair overall for my arthritic hands. So hell yea~

After 36-40 hrs of being awake, I am finally crashing hard. Fingers crossed this is a "Sleep like the dead" kind of sleep and not another round of "wake up every 30-45 minutes in a panic" kind of sleep. 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼

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Dunno if I have any #Neurodivergent buddies out there who abhor the sensory nightmare of dental hygiene, but I'd like to VERY loudly scream about how AMAZING these toothbrushes are. Silky soft, plentiful, & the perfect size. They have single handedly gotten me back on my hygiene game. 10/10!!!

Friends have a wonderful way of making the hard times easier.

Took an epsom salt bath, cleaned up my room, and made an actual gd meal to eat for dinner. Unsurprisingly, I feel better. Voice is still absolutely fucked, but at least I dont feel like a disgusting blob of misery anymore.

Me: Hasn't been eating well while sick Me: Hasn't been exercising at all while sick Me: Hasn't been taking good care of myself for a long time Also me: I feel like shit and everything is awful. :c

Took a klonopin for my anxiety. Hopefully I can get some sleep. Very thankful for Honey's intervention to try and get me to rest, she is a very good and loving baby and I am so lucky to have her in my life.

Friend: Wow, your immune system is not doing great. Me: Yes, I'm immunocompromised. It's why I have to always mask & limit my exposure to people. Even getting something "small" can still lead to me needing to be hospitalized or worse. Friend: We should get you the bubble from Bubble Boy. Me:

Do I want to live off the grid or am I just tired of dealing with our current society? The world may never know.

Think today is a "stay in bed feeling depressed" day. What's the point of doing anything? Nothing matters & no one cares.

Bf got his bday present tonight (a month early). Got him a 6 qt air fryer. He seemed really excited by it, I hope it works well and opens up more culinary paths for him to enjoy. 💗

Relatable lyrics rn.

Been more bad brain days than good ones recently. Can't tell if the things that are bringing me down are valid or if it's just 3+ weeks of being severely ill that is fucking with me.

Oh good, you can turn off the "trending topics" sidebar. Very, very good. I banish you to the void, never come back.

If I have told you explicitly several times that I DO NOT LIKE WATCHING VIDEOS and I ask you a question and your answer is to link a video essay: 1.) Thanks for clearly not listening 2.) I could have googled my question and gotten that answer 3.) I am not fucking watching that video. Ever.

I have another dr appt tomorrow, so of course I cannot sleep tonight but will undoubtedly get tired 1-2 hours before my appointment. Sometimes I wish I could manifest parts of myself in the physical realm just so I could beat them with a wooden spoon. I'm looking at you, immune system & insomnia.

So to recap 2025 so far: Mom's ceiling caved in, I played bodyguard for my sister to protect her from her abusive soon-to-be ex husband (which triggered my PTSD), and I got strep that has now morphed into laryngitis. Fuck you, too, 2025.

I wasn't expecting this, but I feel it's fairly correct. If you wish to do your own: uquiz.com/quiz/9sLzce/...