When I was like 11 I got invited to another kids birthday party but I barely knew her, so I showed up (she lived in my neighborhood) and literally everyone was shocked and wondering who I am. I showed her mom the invitation and basically the girl had invited me as a joke lol
The day of I panicked because I forgot about it and forgot to get her a gift but I didn't know what she liked so I just picked some flowers along the way lmao
My main worry is less that I'll be rejected, it's that they'll let me join, but won't actually want me there, and no one will tell me, but they'll start liking me less and less than they already do without telling me until one day they cut me out entirely.
I had to reprogram my brain that people like me and want me to be around and it's easier to ask for a seat at the table than to cry alone into my box of wine at home
Shout out to my parents for telling me to never invite myself to anything ever or you're a bad person, and that even asking a question is 'inviting yourself'
Appreciate the trauma and all the missed events in life from that because unless someone explicitly said YOU should come, I never did
Still does to me, it's half the reason I think people don't like me, is because I can never internalize that Im always invited so ppl never tell me if I am, and as a result others think I don't want to be friends or Im ghosting them
... this is making me realize. is it *not* rude/offensive/bad to invite yourself to things? like ask to play games with someone, ask to come over to someone's house, etc?
is that not true?? am i allowed to do that and it doesn't make me bad??
Fuck your brain telling you that. I now care about you random stranger on the internet just because everyone should have at least 1 person that gives at least half of a shit about them.
IS IT NOT??? i used to never even sit at tables with other ppl bc they didnt invite me to sit with them WHAT DO YOU MEAN ITS NOT RUDE OR SELFISH OR WHATEVER.
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As a thing! The parents said! Like they meant it!
Ahhhh! I look at this Pic and caption and I have never reposted anything faster in my life.
Cleans off the mess with a towel and then gives you a cookie.
is everything stable rn?
Bright side is Bluesky is showing you on the homepage again. That's a massive plus.
Hope you feel better soon. 🩵
Always pleasant to see you in some shape or form!
I'm in this picture and I don't like it
https://s.wsj.net/public/resources/images/BN-KA230_0826TO_M_20150826094449.jpg
Appreciate the trauma and all the missed events in life from that because unless someone explicitly said YOU should come, I never did
Doubled down with the assertion that anytime i'm feeling depressed it's my fault and i'm doing it for attention.
And now that i'm grown and moved out they wonder why i never ask them for help with anything. Ugh
is that not true?? am i allowed to do that and it doesn't make me bad??
and also, people don't care about me anyway
it's baaaad