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Third surgery eventually was on arm. And yes, I did apologize to primary nurse to whom I feared I demonstrated impatience or might have been curt that one time she and I had different understanding of my fentanyl dose.
She laughed and said I was fine and didn’t have any reason to apologize
Third surgery eventually was on arm. And yes, I did apologize to primary nurse to whom I feared I demonstrated impatience or might have been curt that one time she and I had different understanding of my fentanyl dose.
She laughed and said I was fine and didn’t have any reason to apologize
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But I was glad I did apologize and I was more curt than I should have been. I wondered whether knowing I would have multiple surgeries in multiple days if they pumped me full of ketamine for that first surgery on purpose to help put me in a better mental place to confront what was coming. I
told myself I would ask because if it wasn’t a deliberate strategy, it could have been and might be beneficial for others in the future facing multiple surgeries. I’ve never talked to the right people to discuss it since then.
I was a member of the local psychedelic society and had an
Understanding from different speakers at our monthly meetings at what I called “the hippie cafe” about the science behind benefits from different psychedelics and from my own experiences. I also continued to feel free. Not much of a care in the world, even though I didn’t have insurance or
significant financial resources or the ability to work. The one appointment I missed that did bother me was my scheduled orientation meeting with the Denver Harm Reduction Action Center where I intended to volunteer. They did the meetings quarterly, I think and I would miss mine and have
to wait even LONGER before I could volunteer. Eventually I got to my orientation and would work a weekly shift serving the clients, providing them with clean needles and other smoking materials, access to naloxone, healthcare resources, mental health resources, clean socks, toothpaste, snacks,
feminine hygiene products and products for skincare, wound care, access to classes they could attend and get a free visa gift card. The people were so nice and I learned so much from the orientation and from the orientation for a rotating shelter for which I volunteered in Chicago for people