I miss the old us, me and my ex, where I surprised him on his birthday by creating stuff in a game
He loved it so much, I was so happy to know that too
But I finally able to stop like, this or last year, ig
Last year was bcus he misunderstood me
This year bcus he told me i don't have to
Well, we broke up completely anw, and he also told me he did bad instead on my birthday, so i don't have to
Tbh, I felt like I would, since he didn't get any big surprises like before, even from his fam.
My gf senses just still tingling ig, to make him happy however I could.
But no, I'm not anymore
I miss the old us. Yes, old us. Where he was always trying to listen and understand me, being so mature and so reassuring whenever I felt so doubtful about us about myself about him..
Everything went sucks after he told me the truth, then I got more issues, then he started to change
"I'm still me", he said. Whenever he said that, whenever he stated that, it clearly means that I just don't deserve those love level and kindness and treatment anymore. That's how I interpreted it.
Yeah funny. I mean, like, if he didn't change, then why I feel like I was with different person?
I miss the old him, no doubt. I did, love sb for years on going too before, but since he's the last I just can't help it.
I felt like I fell too hard and even tho he hit me with reality too many times, I just.. my tiny heart just still having that dumb hopes
"Will you wait for him?"
I'm really not sure how to answer that.. He hurts me bad like again and again, even tho only with his words. Even tho I told him it hurts, he didn't care.
He apologized some day(s) later, that's what it always goes.
He apologized, but at what cost?
The wound can't be undone
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He loved it so much, I was so happy to know that too
But I finally able to stop like, this or last year, ig
Last year was bcus he misunderstood me
This year bcus he told me i don't have to
Tbh, I felt like I would, since he didn't get any big surprises like before, even from his fam.
My gf senses just still tingling ig, to make him happy however I could.
But no, I'm not anymore
Everything went sucks after he told me the truth, then I got more issues, then he started to change
Yeah funny. I mean, like, if he didn't change, then why I feel like I was with different person?
I felt like I fell too hard and even tho he hit me with reality too many times, I just.. my tiny heart just still having that dumb hopes
I'm really not sure how to answer that.. He hurts me bad like again and again, even tho only with his words. Even tho I told him it hurts, he didn't care.
He apologized some day(s) later, that's what it always goes.
He apologized, but at what cost?
The wound can't be undone