yeah pretty much. Cultivating mindfulness was as struggle years ago due to my mental issues. I am ironically having an easier go of things now as the 'threat' never really ended, I just got better at managing it. Mostly.
I think the thing that was the hardest to learn for me was that the body can lie to you and having a better comprehension of what 'normal' is suppose to feel like and being mindful of pushing in that direction of feeling.
I have been on fire before and was less stressed out about it. You can kind of adapt or get used to being this stressed out. You can never really get used to being on fire. That's what I learned I think.
In my calmer moments, I am grateful for whatever that last admin was that allowed me to solidify so much. I am better off than I would have been without it. But still. Just 44, and it's the principle of the entire thing
Today’s Gender is apparently “Tiny OSHA Me somehow has the rough proportions, speech patterns and colouration of Young Danny DeVito, despite Actual Me looking nothing like that”
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not that i'd be mean, anyway. i try not to do that
thank you for sharing it here, tho. it is resonant.
Terrifying but not mean, like gorillas