[Recollections of year 2024]
Something ends, something begins, and here I am, waiting with a hot cocoa for the timer to signify the start of fireworks show 🎆
I feel like taking a trip down the memory lane. The year was... not great, at times horrible, but I am ending it on a positive note 🪶
Something ends, something begins, and here I am, waiting with a hot cocoa for the timer to signify the start of fireworks show 🎆
I feel like taking a trip down the memory lane. The year was... not great, at times horrible, but I am ending it on a positive note 🪶
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This year was when I realized how truly and utterly alone I am, in many many aspects. I've not been the best friend, partner, family member, so I take a lot of blame for it.
And yet, I can't help but feel frustrated when I think of the compassion I needed that never came. 💀
We all do. 🌺
And seeing that I am missing those things was a big turning point.
In a way, I've had a lot of things under my belt that were left unaddressed and slowly poisoned me from the inside. I guess it was an emotional debt that had yet to pay. 🧵
I have started slowly unraveling myself and examining how exactly am I functioning and how I should function.
I have started a few long term projects that I've been denying myself for various reasons. Some of them are very personal, lifechanging and resource intensive. 📖
What content? I am ashamed to admit, but I haven't produced much worthwhile content to be seen, consumed and appreciated. 💀
Well, almost. I described myself as a 'vtuber in training', which is basically just fluff for 'I want to do something, but don't know how'. Boring, isn't it? 💤
Yet I did develop in some way. I have gone back to writing, and the times I wrote poems and stories for others was the most creative I've felt in years. 🪶