I really miss my grandma. I would share everything about my life with her if I thought that I could. Typical 1st gen immigrant trauma I guess. I can physically go back but I can never feel at home there again.
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Add queer trauma on top of that. When I was there in 2022 I constantly had a pit in my stomach thinking my extended family, who have supposedly loved me all my life would turn at an instant the moment they find I’m one of those degenerate queers.
I’m sure my family loves me. I have no reason to think that they don’t. But I’ll never be able to “redeem” all of it because of who I am. And I just have to live with that. I guess distance makes it easier. I’ll take what I can get while still protecting myself.
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