[tw: implied csa]
steve who quietly turns his Lion away to face the wall the first time they try to have sex in his room, and eddie who gets a strange, queasy feeling in his gut about it. something about the somber way that steve did it just doesn't sit right with him.
steve who quietly turns his Lion away to face the wall the first time they try to have sex in his room, and eddie who gets a strange, queasy feeling in his gut about it. something about the somber way that steve did it just doesn't sit right with him.
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"do you want Lion to lie with us?" asks eddie, and it sounds childish even to his own ears.
steve hums. pauses.
"we're in our underwear," eddie points out. "we haven't done anything." eddie feels stupid. he doesn't understand why he feels so wrong. steve looks at him askance, almost knowing. "nothing he hasn't seen before," eddie says, weakly. stupidly.
he kisses eddie on the cheek, almost knowing, like eddie's something to be gentle with. eddie wants to puke.
Lion spends the night between them, cradled close. steve keeps running his hand over his felt nose, as gentle as ever.
yeah. eddie's beginning to understand that.
"I know," says eddie. he does.
they don't talk anymore. they drift off like that, Lion between them, hands entwined.