This is Kid. I wrote in more detail on the patreon but I am having a really rough stretch right now. The holidays did a number on my depression and now I am trying to be proactive and start with a psychiatrist who can manage all my medication 1/
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It does seem reductionist to fill out multi forms- but that’s only1 part & nowhere near the important part. It’s something to address, like any other medical issue, that makes your life difficult It in NO WAY defines you. You are taking action, to keep this factor minimized. You are taking charge! 💗
Going to a psychiatrist is a good first step. Remember it may take a few days ir a couple of weeks for the medication to start working. I have depression too and bipolar 1 but I'm at a point where I have all the medications I need. Therapy would benefit you. You're not a failure. 1/2
wishing all the best for you. you’re very brave to speak out and ask for help. please hang in there, I promise you—and I’m speaking from experience—it will get better
You are so much more than words on a form Kid, you're talented, beautiful and funny. And the fact that you're seeking help shows that you have strength! 🩵 It might look like an uphill struggle, but the view from the top of your mountain will be worth the climb!
Rather than the piecemeal I have now with different doctors prescribing different parts of what I need and everything costing too much (the at-home ketamine has gone up to $800) and not working well (the adhd meds I am on are a small step above sugar pills). 2/
I also have adhd. I tried Adderall and Vyvance but they were too addictive for me. I'm taking a new one that's non-stimulant called Strattera, but the generic version Atomoxetine 40mg. I'll need a higher dosage on my next appointment, or maybe it takes more time to work. I never tried ketamine.
I have found a clinician who should be able to integrate all of this and I am excited to have more consistent care, but the intake process involves a lot of forms. Forms that detail my whole life with depression, self-harm, hospitalizations and attempts. 3/
I understand. When I started therapy I got depressed talking about my lifelong problems, and the same when I first went to see my psychiatrist. But my therapist helped me by realizing many things that happened to me were not my fault and I'm not a failure. I can say I've made unwise decisions.
It is a very upsetting thing to see it all laid out. My life looks very small and sad in that view. It is hard to imagine things will get better when all prior evidence points to things getting worse, or just staying bad. 4/
Hang in there and remember that's your depression talking. You will feel better after you get the right combination and dosages of medications. Keep all of your appointments. Try to tell yourself that things will get better and don't ever give up. It sounds like you need a family counselor.
"very small and sad" - NO! I posit that it shows how strong you are and how much of a fighter you are - depression is a debilitating disease and you have been fighting against it with everything you have!
I already feel very much like a failure and a burden. Like a life that has started and gone nowhere for way too long. Seeing it confirmed on paper makes picturing anything better really hard. You have all been so supportive and I want you to know I am still trying. 5/
I’m trying to make more jewelry and find ways to be less of a drag on my mom financially. I’m trying to keep sharing pictures of Karl and Luther to bring smiles to your faces in increasingly difficult times. I may not always succeed but I love you all and I really am trying. 6/6
You have got this. I have followed along with your journey for years. We are so proud that you are taking the step. You are not alone. If you ever want to talk, DM me.
Keep it UPS
and 🙏 Each Day,
1 day at a time,
as that's what Protects Our Minds!
If Bad thoughts Arrives😢
Manifest Our Lord's✝️
Satan's
He comes in Many Disguise👹.
But Our Lord Opens ALL Eyes 😘🙏
Brings Today's of Sunny Skie's,🌞
As for Each Day Positivity,🙏😘
Our Lord NOT Denies
Our Futures Imply
It's almost 4am where I live so I'm going back to sleep. I get insomnia sometimes. I'm in the PST time zone. I'll check back later to see how you're doing.
We love you too and want to bring a smile to you and give you hope. I used to feel the same way and cry a lot. But I know my family understands and they want to help me as best they can. I realize now that my mental disorders, I have 5, were a problem growing up and into adulthood. Lean on us. 🫶
Also frend Kid - remember th time yoo saw a man beating a woman in th car park an yoo stared him down and allowed her to escape? That iz not th action ov someone who iz a failure that is th action ov a really courageous compassionate person xxx
We luvs your doggo posts frend Kid We iz so sorry to hear yoo iz unhappy We wants yoo to be much betterer with th new doctor Sending yoo hugs an luv an yoo is NOT a burden yoo iz a bootiful hooman xxx
I know it's a big financial burden that adds to your stresses. I hope your psych meds are covered under @costplusdrugs.com that has been really helpful for us and meds are either delivered or filled at local pharmacies.
Kid you are not a burden. I think you're very strong and brave. The 1 clinician sounds like a good idea and to be organising that is great! I know how those types of forms can be horrid and disheartening, hopefully once past that the new clinician it will lead to better things
It might look small, but it's not. Really, it's not. Sometimes it's hard to see around the corner, but it does get better. Go outside, and yea, I know it's cold, but take a deep breath of fresh air. A little walk. It does take awhile, but it will get better. ❤️❤️❤️
So glad you found someone to coordinate all the “pieces” so the puzzle can be assembled. You are strong and persistent, and your stories bring so much joy to all of us! Keep fighting!
First, my wife wore a pair of your earrings the other day & loved them & got a lot of compliments on them! You're obviously talented in that regard as well as being very amusing & original. I hope the new clinician helps! Like others here, it WILL get better & those babies count on & adore you! 🤗❤️
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and 🙏 Each Day,
1 day at a time,
as that's what Protects Our Minds!
If Bad thoughts Arrives😢
Manifest Our Lord's✝️
Satan's
He comes in Many Disguise👹.
But Our Lord Opens ALL Eyes 😘🙏
Brings Today's of Sunny Skie's,🌞
As for Each Day Positivity,🙏😘
Our Lord NOT Denies
Our Futures Imply