Anyway, I don’t know what the fuck to do, and honestly? A big part of that is… well, this. You’ve all been at my side while Trazyn grew up. You helped with the cost of that fucking board and train. And I’ve failed myself, him, and everyone:
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We’re going to class Wednesday. I’m going to talk to the trainer. It’s class number three, so maybe he’ll have an idea for a plan to get past all the obstacles I put in our path.
Or maybe, considering we can’t even get out of the fucking car without Trazyn barking and lunging, he’ll just tell me to get my head out of my ass and be realistic about the situation. I don’t know.
We re all here for the good, bad & inbetween. We can relate & try to come together to help any way we can. It's good to vent & reach out. This must be so stressful & heartbreaking for u both & it's OK to ask for help.🫂 U are doing all the best things for u both, pls let us know what we can do💙🐾
We are so here for you. Sounds like an super stressful situation, and I appreciate that you have posted about all that you are dealing with. Wish I could help in some meaningful way, but you are trying all avenues, and not giving up so....take that as a win for this morning, and go from there.
You haven’t let your community down. We are here to help whether you succeed or not. I understand why you feel you let yourself and Trazyn down, but give yourself some grace, a lot of shit has happened that you couldn’t control. I’m sorry I can’t help directly. Much love❤️❤️❤️
You cannot blame yourself for the fuckery your body put you (and by extension, Trazyn) through. It's out of your control and not even remotely your fault. If you couldn't train him b/c you'd broken your legs, you'd give yourself understanding and grace. This is no different.
Agreeing 100% with Karen, though I've not been as present as you go through this as I should have been! 💔 People's love for you isn't transactional, and it isn't based on your productivity or Trazyn's success. Sometimes circumstances suck so, so bad and there's nothing else you could have done. 😭
Oh Jordan. I really wish I could do something to help. I could take Trazyn to live with me temporarily if you thought it might give you time to regain your strength. I am not a good trainer but I am sort of a hermit, so Trazyn would probably feel comfortable living with me, 3 dogs, and 2 cats.♥️
You haven’t failed. You’ve done the best you could—that’s enough. I will keep reading the rest, but you need to know that no one thinks you’ve failed. ❤️
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I just need to do something.