I can't say how much I needed to read this. I have a project in progress that I've been developing for months. Nothing is ready. But I feel the need to get started NOW...
This is me putting my hands on your shoulders and looking you dead in the eye to say this: those feelings will never go away. You just have other's perceptions of you change the longer you power through them, which is really, really weird, because your perception of yourself hasn't changed.
I really don’t know what to do when the bad thoughts win every time. It has the point I’ve gone over a decade and without doing anything I’ve wanted too…
Happens to me too, something that has helped me sometimes is impose a time limit, like a few days for example (be it by myself or something silly like "hey tumblr friends tell me a number" and make that number the limit), and just try and make anything by that time (a drawing, some comic pages, >
>whatever fits that time span in your personal estimate); sometimes you are really not in the mood at all, but others it serves as just that small step or motivator to start doing something, even if it's small, or bad, or both.
Awesome work! This reminds me of the show “The Storyteller”, where the storyteller is a story short, so he talks at length about why he has no story to tell, and the person he’s explaining it to tells him it was the best story he’s ever heard. That doubtful little demon just gave you a comic.
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It reassures me so much to see that someone I think is so much better than me is struggling with this kind of thing. It's almost motivating. Thank you