she's gone thru a lot of tough stuff, and managed to be a good mom all in all. but still, I feel like I shaped my entire life around what would make her happy...
just erasing myself in the equation. now, in my thirties, I found someone who cares for me a makes me happy. whilst, mom is dealing with past trauma and depression. I insist she needs therapy, but she won't go...
I wonder if she knows that is extremely painful for me to deal with her wanting to unalive herself every now and then... It hurts, but it also angers me that she isn't seeking for professional help, what else can I do?
she even expects me to fix her issues with his partner... but that seems off to me, even so, I agree because I don't want her to suffer (she's got a rare form of epilepsy, and she cannot stress since it triggers her brain to having seizures).
I really love her, but I just wish I didn't have to carry with all this emotional load... I want her to see a therapist, I just don't think I'll be able to convince her since I've already tried in the past. Let's see how everything unravels from now on...
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