Serious post, no pressure to read through it but u have something to get off my chest. Below are the last shirtless pic and last gym selfies I have taken off myself. Both are literally 2 years old. I haven't taken any selfies like this since. And the obvious reason is- cont. - ThreadSky

ashdeleon5.bsky.social • 87 days ago

Serious post, no pressure to read through it but u have something to get off my chest.
Below are the last shirtless pic and last gym selfies I have taken off myself. Both are literally 2 years old. I haven't taken any selfies like this since. And the obvious reason is- cont.

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barrett19.bsky.social•87 days ago

Thanks for opening up man, I know what BD does so someone, having it myself. Took Until last year for me to even start thinking I could be remotely attractive to someone. MF has helped with that a lot. You were one of the first people I messaged on there when I started to try and break my shell.

barrett19.bsky.social•87 days ago

I was overjoyed when you responded to me, you probably don’t remember but I always will. I’m Newtoothis on there. I’m still hoping I can some day get a match with you. Would still be a dream to job for you one day. You and your stage partner have always been studs in my eyes!

barrett19.bsky.social•87 days ago

I’m hoping to take some of the same punishment as brutal battle boy did.

barrett19.bsky.social•87 days ago

Just know there are still a lot of people out here that look at you with great admiration. Myself being one of them. Also the I like it better when someone is mean on the mats but nice off. It’s how it should be in my opinion.

ashdeleon5.bsky.social•86 days ago

It's a hard, hard struggle but honestly, it's a journey best traveled with others. Others who will tell you the opposite of what our thoughts tell us. 🙏🏼

switchylilkinkster.bsky.social•87 days ago

Thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable Ash.

I’m sorry people are so shitty. I’m sorry body dysmorphia sucks so badly. And I know 100% it doesn’t help- becuase people have told me something similar; but you have the body I fucking dream of.

ashdeleon5.bsky.social•86 days ago

Trust me, it helps more then you think so I'm always grateful when people tell me this ^_^

ashdeleon5.bsky.social•87 days ago

Body dsymorphia and low self esteem. I haven't felt happy with my body since that pic on the left. And it has infested my self esteem on my performance and standing in the world of underground wrestling. The consistent doubt of my relevance and self worth in this current industry has--

ashdeleon5.bsky.social•87 days ago

Diminished quite a bit. So... seeing two comments recently got to me quite a bit. 1) where on Tumblr I was made aware someone comment on a pic of me stating my real name, and saying I wasn't much of a heel when the camera is off, was quite gut wrenching. And another where someone commented--

ashdeleon5.bsky.social•87 days ago

That my scene partner was "fat now so he won't perform the same" while this comment wasn't directed at me and towards my stage partner who has much thicker skin then me, it hit me hard. So to end my rambling, this is just a very honest, raw reminder. That us workers do have issues with --

ashdeleon5.bsky.social•87 days ago

Our own bodies and performances. And that every supportive comment i have gotten from you guys mean SO much more then you guys think. Even when my head disagrees with you guys, you guys help me fight those stupid voices. And to those who comment demeaning and hurtful things to us... well, 🖕🏽.

raphaelsdesire.bsky.social•87 days ago

body dysmorphia is a persistent bastard but for what it's worth you look grand regardless

ashdeleon5.bsky.social•86 days ago

It is worth plenty 🤗 thank you sexy!

ashdeleon5.bsky.social•87 days ago

Love y'all and please love yourselves too ok? 🙏🏼 thanks for reading ^_^ I'll go back to posting horny things now 🙇🏻‍♂️

m1tchsumner.bsky.social•77 days ago

I know I’m late to this, but man I understand what you mean so hard. The body dysmorphia and self doubt are killers and I hope you find some piece bro 🫂 it’s rough out here and people are mean

theseismictoss.bsky.social•76 days ago

It's wild because me seeing you now, I'm like, dude has the most muscle I've ever seen on him, and it looks so awesome! 🙌🏼 But I understand how you're feeling. Esp with all the online love, which feels good and real, I should be proud. Just need to believe that love more than I believe what I see 😅

albarreon.bsky.social•85 days ago

Thank you for being vulnerable! It can really take a toll on your mental health to be the object of constant scrutiny. For what it's worth, I think you and your scene partner are hot as hell!

ashdeleon5.bsky.social•85 days ago

Always means alot coming from a sexy mfer like you! ^_^

ashvoture.bsky.social•87 days ago

A great reminder we need to be positive in comments posted of others.

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