Everyone did their whole reflection on 2024 posts, and I forgot to do mine in time, but mostly because I was extremely miserable all year, and tbh I'm not doing much better now. I've never felt a deeper sense of total, utter loneliness as I did this past year, and it's still extremely pervasive. - ThreadSky

levion.bsky.social • 63 days ago

Everyone did their whole reflection on 2024 posts, and I forgot to do mine in time, but mostly because I was extremely miserable all year, and tbh I'm not doing much better now.

I've never felt a deeper sense of total, utter loneliness as I did this past year, and it's still extremely pervasive.

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levion.bsky.social•63 days ago

I fucking hate mormonism so much. I despise how manipulative and evil and controlling it is. So passive aggressive and twisted in the way people just do everything they can to ruin your life for not conforming to it. Especially where I live in the deepest bowels of mormon hell. I've been "out" for

levion.bsky.social•63 days ago

the better part of 8 years, but the last one has been far and away the hardest because the second I showed a shred of activity in my abandonment, everything just broke to pieces. I've lost most of my family, any semblance of a relationship I had with old friends, and any lingering thread of a local

levion.bsky.social•63 days ago

community. I mean I was always bad at maintaining some of that stuff, but like, at least when they didn't know? It was a fall back option? Now I'm thoroughly and utterly ostracized, and all my friends smart enough to get out before me are long gone, and the rest only tolerate me for the person they

levion.bsky.social•63 days ago

think I still am. Which was a thoroughly blunt, arrogant and angry person.

I'm still fucking angry, but for entirely different reasons now. I'm so angry at men. At these old and saggy monsters who so joyfully manipulate people for the sake of their wealth and power. I'm so angry at the parents who

levion.bsky.social•63 days ago

willfully indoctrinate their kids into this shit. Who genuinely believe it's providing their kids with something better when it's such harmful rhetoric, such a stunted growth cycle and such awful, terrible and repressive parenting that each and every single self-respecting individual who takes part

levion.bsky.social•63 days ago

in it STILL after all the evidence, and the CES letter and everything else; they should be so deeply, personally ashamed of themselves.

I'M ashamed. I'm so mad at myself for falling for this for so long. For never questioning a thing until long after I hurt so many people because of it. For being

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