So I put together two documents - in one, I put my expectations for the group and sent it to the static as an open invitation. Everyone except for one person jumped on.
In the other, I wrote down what -I- wanted to accomplish and get better at as a raid leader. No one but me would see this.
I know what my biggest flaw is, and what it's always been. I don't like being the bad guy. I knew as much two years ago when a friend from our old Creator group asked why I think some early members flopped out.
There's some other smaller stuff in there - I need to reduce yapping, primarily from myself but also being able to shut people up if we're losing focus. If I'm calling mechanics I have to make sure I'm clear and concise, and most of all that I'm -right-.
I need to play perfect. All things considered I have an easy job here, and how can I hold people to task about messing up mechanics if I can't do them myself? I need to get better at reading the room, both to defuse tension early and to know when someone needs a moment to collect themselves.
So looking at this as we're nearing the end, I don't think I did a good job. I did hit a lot of the minor goals, but I missed the big one. I -still- don't like being the bad guy. If anything I kept counting on other people to do the bad part for me, which is a supremely fucked up expectation.
About the best I could reach for the majority of the past few months was ending each night with a broad reminder for people who work on things they messed up. But that didn't hit everybody, and it sometimes wasn't hitting the people I'd intended it for.
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In the other, I wrote down what -I- wanted to accomplish and get better at as a raid leader. No one but me would see this.