kinda tw idk do you guys ever wish ur trauma was worse bc it doesnt feel bad enough to have such an effect on you ? - ThreadSky

ac3y-wac3y.bsky.social • 81 days ago

kinda tw idk

do you guys ever wish ur trauma was worse bc it doesnt feel bad enough to have such an effect on you ?

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noneofyourbusyness.bsky.social•81 days ago

There is a desire for an obviousness, so that I don't have doubt.

It doesn't help that my brain is forcefully forgetting bad stuff as a means of self preservation.

starvedinpink.bsky.social•80 days ago

YES !!! I have been diagnosed with PTSD yet I feel like I don’t deserve it bc my trauma isn’t that bad

landmine-boy.bsky.social•80 days ago

YES THIS 24/7!! like i see the trauma of other people and i deadass will say to myself "why couldn't i have been SA'd as a child or beaten severely or even now experienced some new trauma so i could feel valid bc so many ppl had it worse than me and i can hardly remember my own trauma"

ac3y-wac3y.bsky.social•80 days ago

THIS ^^^^^ i feel guilty for feeling that way but without anything else i can't accept that i actually have trauma

ac3y-wac3y.bsky.social•81 days ago

like wym i have c-ptsd ive never been to war

r0ttencavity.bsky.social•81 days ago

this ^^ my mother tells me all the time I can't have PTSD because I had never gone to war

ac3y-wac3y.bsky.social•81 days ago

im sorry :( ur trauma is valid and u dont deserve to have someone tell u otherwise

r0ttencavity.bsky.social•81 days ago

thank you. ive learned to tell her to fuck off about it & just bc she denies her own dx doesnt mean she needs to deny mine 😂 she hadnt said shit since

ac3y-wac3y.bsky.social•81 days ago

omg that awesome, ur inspiring me to stick up for myself 💪💪💪

r0ttencavity.bsky.social•81 days ago

as you should bb!! the worst they can get is defensive and bitchy. but that just means you hit a nerve 🤭

carvedapotheosis.bsky.social•80 days ago

unfortunately true, i used to wish all the time I'd get hurt or worse as a kid/teen bcs what i was going through wasn't bad enough in my parents' eyes to deserve help & compassion, i adapted that mentality too ://
you'll never guess what disorder i got diagnosed with at 21 🤪🤪

xodarling.bsky.social•81 days ago

mine used to be worse when my abuser was still alive, up until a year or so after they passed .. imagine being in love with your abuser .. i’m still struggling every single day, but i’m happy my mental isn’t where it used to be 💖

ac3y-wac3y.bsky.social•81 days ago

i understand, im happy ur doing better now !! mine is built up over a lot of things but mainly my ex roommate that i still care about even tho ik i shouldnt :( ur not alone 🫂🤍

xodarling.bsky.social•81 days ago

you’re not alone either!! 🫂🫂❤️‍🩹

vaalunq.hates.lol•81 days ago

YES?

vaalunq.hates.lol•81 days ago

dude wdym i can get drunk but the moment beer is involved or someone else is drunk i have a panic attack
wdym i have an intense fear of men that are especially taller than me bc i know theyll be overpower me easily nothing ever happened to me in person why am i so goddamn paranoid it’s not valid yk?

ac3y-wac3y.bsky.social•81 days ago

THIS IS SO REAL

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