I have the pleasure of working with 1/1 most of the time with a trans person. Pretty sure they know it, but I'll be sure to tell them I love them tomorrow.
With the way things are going, it wouldn't have been surprising if there was something even worse happening they hadn't heard yet, which is probably why they asked.
(Also why I came into the comments to verify at least.)
"Future" like nah there is none, just come out and tell me right now to off myself so I can avoid being in denial and procrastinating on it much longer
who is there to mock your denial of death? what does it mean to avoid that? these sound like punishing words.
maybe there's not much left but it's all pretty strange, I couldn't have made it up. I'm not going to leave any of it behind now, unless there comes to be a good reason. death can catch me
Sorry. Was just coming off of a few hours of an absolute low even before this shit
Kinda just meant being in denial in that my impulse with this stuff is to try and reason or think of anything that could happen instead of my worst fears . Self punishment is kind of also an impulse tho.
Just... scared and tired and not sure what to think anymore. Kinda feelnwhat you express, but everything is unclear. I want to live, it's just the fear of living empty again, the way things felt for me before HRT.
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(Also why I came into the comments to verify at least.)
maybe there's not much left but it's all pretty strange, I couldn't have made it up. I'm not going to leave any of it behind now, unless there comes to be a good reason. death can catch me
Kinda just meant being in denial in that my impulse with this stuff is to try and reason or think of anything that could happen instead of my worst fears . Self punishment is kind of also an impulse tho.
no reason to apologize, you didn't make me, i chose to respond (being cringe, don't care/can't stop me)