the day i tried to take my life, i went out onto the prairie and watched the sunset. once it finished, i attempted to shoot myself but the gun wouldn't fire. i'm not sure if it was some sort of divine intervention or if i just grabbed the one gun that didn't work properly, but... yeah - ThreadSky

sirpootington.bsky.social • 17 hours ago

the day i tried to take my life, i went out onto the prairie and watched the sunset. once it finished, i attempted to shoot myself but the gun wouldn't fire. i'm not sure if it was some sort of divine intervention or if i just grabbed the one gun that didn't work properly, but... yeah

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sirpootington.bsky.social•17 hours ago

after that, i met my partner, saw my first tornado in person, and slowly started paying more attention to the world

in 2022, i began a long process of retraining my brain to do exactly that all the time. i accomplished my goal in late 2023.

sirpootington.bsky.social•17 hours ago

i look back at what was almost my final day and i can still see that sunset. it was special and my god was it beautiful.

the tornado i saw was incredible too, even if it was 1 of 5 around me at the moment. i can still see it. it was a beautiful rope

sirpootington.bsky.social•17 hours ago

the top of it stayed still while the rest bent and flowed with such elegance. at the time, it was terrifying because my father wanted to go to the grocery store for some reason. looked back, it's honestly funny as fuck how everybody was acting like nothing was happening as sirens blared across town

sirpootington.bsky.social•17 hours ago

but it was incredible to see. in may of last year, i had found out about one of my best friends passing away and, not long after, there were auroras outside. i couldn't help but watch. i was so angry, but i was calm too.

sirpootington.bsky.social•17 hours ago

the northern lights were pretty dim to the human eye at the time but i could see the reds and greens slowly dancing with each other.

even though i was heartbroken, i had a reason to be happy and it was right in front of me at that very moment. i could've sworn i could reach out and touch it...

sirpootington.bsky.social•17 hours ago

earlier on in the thread, i mentioned meeting and talking to different types of people on my travels. one i remember off the top of my head is this beautiful older black woman i met in Georgia. i was in line at a gas station with some drinks and snacks and she was in front of me.

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