But it is so exhausting for me, that I try to avoid groups of people. I prefer to meet single persons, because "switching" permanently between various individuals is very hard for me.
I actually like leaning into different aspects of my personality. I got groups where I'm the loud one, and where I'm the quiet one. The knowledgeable one sometimes, and other times the only normie without a PhD.
It puts everything into perspective.
It's all roleplaying. Observing how people act, then acting the same to be accepted by them. Well, it was when I was still in school.
Using up most of my daily energy on roleplaying and trying to make people like me or fit in.
It's exhausting. I don't want to do it anymore.
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But it is so exhausting for me, that I try to avoid groups of people. I prefer to meet single persons, because "switching" permanently between various individuals is very hard for me.
It puts everything into perspective.
Using up most of my daily energy on roleplaying and trying to make people like me or fit in.
It's exhausting. I don't want to do it anymore.
It's like theatre play. Learning the phrases and expected behaviours and the worst part is, different groups have different phrases and rules.
Thinking carefully about what to say and how to say it is very exhausting.