my birthday is 2 weeks away and it's kind of an odd feeling to recognize going into my birthday is always going to come with some melancholic reflection on mortality from now on, I suppose
I suppose this year is hitting me harder than normal because I just genuinely don't know what my future looks like atm. I just hope I can keep being able to pay rent after May
but I deal with anxiety by working even harder than before so time to pick up a tablet pen for the night
i'm pretty at peace with it, my father kind of had the best possible death I could imagine for a person, he died very happy, but yeah it the grief never really goes away and it resurfaces in odd ways
that's just grief bein griefy eh, I mean 16 years there's no way I'm still hung up on it but I had a vivid dream where I got to see him again like a couple years back and woke up bawling my eyes out.
Like man, aside from that I hadn't cried about him in over half a decade! Just snuck up on me
it's lovely you had such a wonderful relationship with your father and the love shines through with that to this day. appreciate you sharing such a personal thing Nileo
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but I deal with anxiety by working even harder than before so time to pick up a tablet pen for the night
Like man, aside from that I hadn't cried about him in over half a decade! Just snuck up on me