[TW!! This post is just some lore and trauma dumping. No need to read just wanted to get it out of my system.] I had a friend of 5-6 years that I met online on an adult roleplaying site(I joined because at that time I turned 18 and wanted to experiment with my art, audience and content). - ThreadSky

chiefywiffy.bsky.social • 13 days ago

[TW!! This post is just some lore and trauma dumping. No need to read just wanted to get it out of my system.]

I had a friend of 5-6 years that I met online on an adult roleplaying site(I joined because at that time I turned 18 and wanted to experiment with my art, audience and content).

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chiefywiffy.bsky.social•13 days ago

I won't share the name of the site cuz not only I've left it, I've stopped talking to said friend as well. (For easier reading I'll name this friend, J.) We would talk about lotsa things and we've shared some personal stuff. So I consider J as someone quite close even though we've never met.

chiefywiffy.bsky.social•13 days ago

I learnt they were bipolar. They had moved a lot before settling down. Transferred schools and stuff. Had a rough family, divorce etc.

Because of how we would share stuff like this, I felt a connection I've never felt before. Even fell for them a bit. Heartbroken when learnt they got a new gf.

chiefywiffy.bsky.social•13 days ago

Didn't last long, learnt that the bitch cheated on J with a guy. Didn't know how that actually went cuz I never pried into it. During our relationship, J would sometimes be 'scary'. They would get so depressing, being nihilistic and talk about how everything doesn't matter and would get worse.

chiefywiffy.bsky.social•13 days ago

This behaviour would exasperate whenever they got drunk. I try to be patient cuz I know they're bipolar. Try to avoid arguments with them and be empathetic. But they would just be so negative and I don't remember if I was being verbally abused. Probably. Everything had to be an argument.

chiefywiffy.bsky.social•13 days ago

At one point I just snapped and said block me I dont care anymore. Something like that. But after that we would still talk for years, about various things. I even encouraged them to start drawing and they did. I get proud whenever they sketched or doodled or draw.

chiefywiffy.bsky.social•13 days ago

These past couple years I've started to mature and realize that this relationship is really toxic. It's giving me nothing. I just know they would just try to talk about themselves and stroke their ego. They don't even remember what I tell them about myself. Feel like they don't even care.

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