Happy Monday I guess?
Had another weekend, and this one brought an interesting thought to me as I sat in my room and played Minecraft with @valnar1.bsky.social on the server they set up.
The thought process went a bit like this:
Huh, am I social enough to go actually talk to someone in a Vc?
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Had another weekend, and this one brought an interesting thought to me as I sat in my room and played Minecraft with @valnar1.bsky.social on the server they set up.
The thought process went a bit like this:
Huh, am I social enough to go actually talk to someone in a Vc?
(1/?)
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Not really, so why do I feel like I need to be talking with some one or being social?
Probably because I’m never really ok with being alone with just myself.
We should fix that, other people aren’t there to fill your need for stimulation.
How do I fix this?
Simple you spend time with yourself.
So I did, I had an hour or two in there where I was in a VC on discord, but in reality, I wasn’t checked in and I wasn’t really paying attention.
I think I realized I need to stop caring about how much/what other people think of me.
So I kinda stopped caring most of that day, it honestly wasn’t comfortable, I wasn’t ok at times. However it was good for me.
I needed to stop caring so much, so I kinda have. I’m not saying I don’t have the capacity to care, I’m just not in the mood for it anymore.
Love life, don’t care anymore. Friends, those that care will talk to me, and when I feel social I’ll just reach out. Hobbies, I have guitar, art, and gaming, I would normally put VR there, but I honestly don’t care about it beyond others asking me to hang out.
Really it is kinda nice and peaceful when I stop caring. It might seem cold, but I really don’t care anymore, talk to me, don’t talk to me, it is all the same really. I’m not going to put more effort into the things and people that don’t seem to do that same back.