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Your outie knows the lyrics to many hit songs.

It doesn't have to be like thisssss 🎶

Your outie has a vast collection of funko pop figures

album cover, band name, album title

Mad how this is one of the very most perfect songs ever written but didn’t get released during Judee Sill’s lifetime - and isn’t even one of her top five greatest songs. A properly holy chord progression, and then some. youtu.be/6gThm6vHwCQ

j u s t d i s c o n n e c t skooshed shirt now available!! www.skooshed.net

My friend made me a hat

Yesterday's bipolar episode was brought to you by a stray vape that someone left at my house

Omg bro I am so embarrassed 😵‍💫

Now I'm on that internal treadmill of trying to figure out what to say that'll make everything okay and undo all the weird feelings I put out into the world today 🥵

I'd say as far as social media breakdowns are concerned that wasn't so bad. I just always show the real me even if it's not so pretty, because large parts of myself are unhealed, and life is always testing those unhealed parts.

Okay that's enough for this evening. I had a falling out with myself today and it feels pretty wack. I also got attention for it which also feels pretty wack. I don't want to feel reinforced in venting.

Over 50 ableton things this year but I just don't love any of them

I think way too much about what people think. Which has its upsides. But I'd also rather be myself and try to connect with folks who are okay with that.

Meh I'm not gonna delete my posts, I have a right to be sad sometimes ✌🏻

open.spotify.com/track/0K5A1R...

It is ultimately selfish to crash out on social media

I don't want people to worry but I also don't wanna lie 😓

And if you really wanna know how kind you are Just ask yourself why you're lying in bed alone

Wish I wasn't crazy 🤒

Oh no my friends can see me now I'll have to delete everything and pretend it's alright

Hating yourself is the worst form of narcissism

I haven't been able to write a song since the summer! That's like 90% of my identity, being a music maker! If that's gone what's left? I only hope that I'm being emptied out so that I can be refilled / rebuilt in the Lords image and maybe find some light or something worth living for.

"Just make happier posts and the rest will follow" <- has never actually worked for anyone with severe psychological trauma

CSH is one of the best bands we have. Their music is so powerful that it knocks me over and I can't get up.

in life we experience multiple deaths, and part of me is truly gone, and that's so unfortunate. I really feel like a shell a lot of the time. The secret ingredient is people. Some people really make me feel whole when I'm around them, but that's not fair. I should be whole on my own.

I don't even feel like a real furry a lot of the time. Describe my fursona? With what? I don't have any personality traits, I used to think I was self aware but I realized I'm only self conscious and the things I'm self conscious of aren't even the things that truly make me such a tough sell. Idk.

You wouldn't believe how much I second guess myself, and how little personal identity I really feel like I have. I wish I was smarter and more talented and more welcoming and more fun and more approachable and more witty and more loving and more confident and more dynamic and more creative and and

It's rough though, life has really pushed me around and I haven't landed where I want to be. Boston is great for some I'm sure but for me it's a food desert, everyone I wanna see lives in Somerville and even in rooms full of people I feel totally alone. I think discord is the one place I feel okay.

I got so lucky where I landed when it comes to friends. I always wanted friends, that's really all anything I've ever done is about. I grew up feeling lonely and isolated and I still do. I met a girl at the club and she said "you're a dj you're cool" and I am like no, no I am not.

My friends are so amazing and I just wish I was as amazing as them. Envy is the only sin that feels baddddd

Arrrrgg there's so much more I want out of life 😓 this internet has got so many hooks in me I feel like a victim of pinhead's chains

Ну, погоди! 👅

I've been able to brush off most of the erasure of trans people from government websites, but this one is REALLY getting under my skin. It's just complete revisionist history. How fucking dare they Old vs. new

What if two?

I feel like some people have more love than they know what to do with

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David Finch...

just stay

On my way to New York City to see some friends :)