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adeletaylor.bsky.social
Data analyst, nerd, depressive. Views my own not that of my employer. She/her.
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Not going to lie, it's getting harder and harder to think of things to write in my gratitude journal beyond family, friends, and nerdfighters.

Wondering how much my lack of reading lately is just my brain not working and how much is because I'm trying to work my way through all the Fredrick Forsyth books I have and they're...ok.

So....*next* week I'll try the diet and no alcohol thing. Again.

In just 48 hours, decades of global health progress have been ignored and put at risk. The U.S. terminated 90% of USAID foreign aid contracts—including lifesaving services once considered safe from the freeze. Let’s talk about why this matters and how we can fight back: youtube.com/shorts/U0mLg...

Managed small amount of work amid doomscrolling. Will try a run a bit later. Seeing family tomorrow. Just got to keep my head up and keep on moving forward I guess.

Hearing from Community Partners International, which works from Myanmar to Bangladesh, that USAID cuts mean 14,000 people with HIV losing access to lifesaving meds and a total stop in all HIV and TB screening. So many people will die due to these chaotic, sudden, horrifically implemented cuts.

This is terrible news

If I could focus on what I'm supposed to be doing instead of the internet, if I could stop comparing myself to others and wishing I looked/acted/was as good as them, if I could just find the secret to true happiness

Another evening dancing and being around people is ok actually. At least if there's good music playing.

Still not sure if this one works - feels like I wasted a great idea on a mediocre execution. But I think that about most of my writing, so...

Really trying to take this to heart.

"but we choose not to live in that world" gets me. Every. Single. Time.

Everything Is Tuberculosis: The first chapter. www.youtube.com/watch?v=CCbD...

We've agreed to cross-taper onto vortioxetine, a new and exciting drug for me, hopefully without the "eat everything and sleep all the time" side-effects. I will have to drop to a lower dose of mirtazapine for a week before starting vortioxetine which may not be fun, but we'll see how it goes.

Oh no, not interacting with other human beings, can I just hide in bed and listen to podcasts instead?

Tomorrow I will be mostly running errands and trying not to cry on what would have been my wife's 46th birthday. Then in the evening I need to pretend to be a normal person when I meet my son's girlfriend's mother — this may actually be the bigger challenge.

⏰ HALF-TIME: The Dons lead 1-0 thanks to Browne’s goal. #AFCW 🟡🔵

Discworld QOTD, from I Shall Wear Midnight “She heard him mutter, 'Can you take away this grief?' 'I'm sorry,' she replied. 'Everyone asks me. And I would not do so even if I knew how. It belongs to you. Only time and tears take away grief; that is what they are for.’”

Brain failed to concentrate on work again and I guess it's nearly the weekend now? Maybe next week everything will just click into place and I'll get shit done.

A lot of you are very fixated on doing the DiCaprio meme at the Nazi salutes, all "EVIDENCE! EVIDENCE THAT THEY REALLY ARE NAZIS!" when the evidence is pretty clear in: everything they've said and done for a decade.

I kind of want to comment on the whole comedy/social prescribing story going around but one of the things that sets off my depression spirals is thinking too much about how I have depression so I'm just going to go over here and do puzzles for a bit.

Look, healthcare provider: you can message me as many times as you like about my eligibility for an NHS Health Check but as the only location is fifty minutes with a change of bus from where I live, I'm just not going to go. Especially not to just be told I need to eat better and lose weight.

Are you disabled and live in York or Cardiff? Do you have issues with access control barriers on traffic-free routes when walking, wheeling, or cycling? We are recruiting disabled participants for in person interviews to discuss their experiences. DM, comment, email if interested. 1/

LAST CALL: Digital nerdfighter art submissions, video voting, AND the Tiltify campaign close in TWO HOURS! #P4A2025 Submit art: projectforawesome.com/art Donate: projectforawesome.com/donate Vote: projectforawesome.com

So it turns out the way to get lots of people to ask you to dance is to not go for two months.

History: “Eventually the incompetent fascists invariably lose power and then society recovers in a new and stronger way” Me: “Oh, cool, so what has to happen for the spell to be broken??” History: “mmmm…well, that part is less encouraging.”

Exactly four weeks today! Commence excitement.

Oh no. I just sneezed.

Ok, I have tomorrow off work to try and return to normal, and get to go dancing on Tuesday (and hopefully more regularly now I've found a new lift). After that I should probably arrange things for next weekend and get my parents an anniversary present for weekend after that.

It was the right decision to give most of my money to the matching fund but part of me wishes I could drop it now on the Jarrod poll... #P4A2025

P4A slowly cheering me up again, but this feels so like end/post-larp blues I am scared for this coming week.

Just woke up sad. Maybe too much junk food and not enough sleep isn't sustainable for a whole weekend. Or maybe it's the depression, and not everything about my mood is within my control.

Taha explaining what flash has has aged me decades. #P4A2025

Dog walked, laundry on, time to catch up on what I missed on #P4A1025 last night.

Biggest day 1 in the 18-year history of @projectforawesome.bsky.social. We've already raised $1,930,000 and we have 40 hours to go! projectforawesome.com/live

I should really go to bed but I am actually not sleepy at all....

Can I stay awake for another two hours? I have drunk a lot of caffeine today...

To explain the internet, first explain binary: excellent, no notes. - a mathematician #P4A2025

Trying to calm my buzzing brain with wine and ice cream.

London Types I'm looking for recommendations for things to do on a Monday evening. I'm likely there for an overnighter in March and want to find something that won't break the bank, but is more entertaining than the walls of a hotel room.

Well I just blew past my P4A budget (I can afford it though, dw) so I'm going to need someone to take my PayPal account away from me.