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Havent written in a while. Doing academic research is hard at its every stage...but this too soon shall pass. Im excited to see what am i becomeing after all of this.

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Ill leave this here on top as a reminder. After my additional spiraling after stateing that i should stop. This is where I end this psychotic session for tonight.

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I really should find something i can see my purpose in before long. I dont know how else to start to grow from where im stuck this deeply. Ive been stuck for so many years now. Not fun. 10/10 would not recommend

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Mind you my troubles far less serious than a tragic character in a show would have. And theres where im back in the "Im actually mediocre" mindset. I love talking in circles around myself WITH myself. Haha Im so funny

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My friends describe me as a melancholic person. And i think it checks. It is also a characterisation im content with. I love that i can see how complex my mind and personality is. I kind of love myself as you would love a tragic character in fiction.

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Im the textbook example of a talented child crushed by the endless possiblities and exeptence of greatness. Resulting that i became actually extremely mediocre. I hate that i think that i should have become more. And this beleif is just eats me alive...

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I also really enjoy statistical analysis. I cant wait for my research to reach that part.

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Also realised what ive already known but while i love that i know psychology....i really really want to do art :((( Like more than anything. Id be awesome to combine them somehow financially efficiently... Welp thats one of my spiral paths again so...maye a conversation for an other day

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Instead of writing i kinda spiraled tonight... Time to repress these thoughts and focus on all of the todays. I mean i did that for years now but ig i should just live blindly else i might go insane.

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She actually hates this plant...lmao

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Ive also seen given for the first time during my sick days. I think i have a new comfort media. Might even read the manga later.

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Its possible that not eating (sometimes at all) paired with a fucked up sleep schedule and chronic anxiety makes ones body go "oopsie"... Yeah i dont remember the last time a sickness got me this bad. Earned me a few days in bed without guilt. It was fun.

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hexceptional #jayvik

submitted 143 days ago • 21 comments

So i havent slept a minute last light. Rawdogging the day, in hopes of a night when i can actually sleep. About to lock in for a 2h writing session. Give me strength.

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in all timelines #jayvik #arcane

submitted 144 days ago • 4 comments

Im a walking block of anxiety and fear. I live solely on caffine and nicotine and i havent been outside my flat not seen an other human being for 5 days. All that just to get some words on a paper. And now i got the flu too. Life is amazing.

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These post will probably help me keep sane in the next few months.

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Im doing a psychologycal research about autism, and i basically live and breathe with this diagnosis...that said i just learned a term (which describes a commonly known aspect of autism) i was not familiar with before...oh to be young and dumb. Except im not young. cries in science

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Dear me, have a motivating pic of neko

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As the wise saying states, starting is the hardest and the only foolproof way is to sit down and power through the mind numbing anxiety and just start. Somehow i managed to do that. Now im actually writing. And its...not bad? Motivating even? Made a schedule for the upcoming progress...we will see

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Soooo bedrotting went way too hard on the first day i dedicated to work - means i did not write a single word, could not even open my laptop. And im on paid leave from my actual workplace for this....whelp

submitted 144 days ago • 0 comments

Soooo bedrotting went way too hard on the first day i dedicated to work - means i did not write a single word, could not even open my laptop. And im on paid leave from my actual workplace for this....whelp

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However im sure neko is free of guilt about the shared bedrotting and it makes me a tiny bit happier

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Somehow i was able to sit down and do some actual work today...nice change of pace after weeks of all consuming guilty bed rotting

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Ive decided to use this as a diary? Dunno...i dont plan to reach an audience mainly just venting stuff? Maybe it helps with my wilting mental health...

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