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#ActuallyAutistic Late diagnosed #autistic software #engineer trying to survive at work and at home. Kids and partner with #ADHD. #autism #spoonie #NAFO
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Finally, I'm on track with my backlog at work. Time for the yearly performance and growth talks. Phew.

Finslly! I've finally managed to complete a work-task that's been under my responsibility for quite a while. Now it's "only" peer-review left to do. Then fix up. But in the mean time, I can Move on to the next.

Fxck. Felt bad yesterday, so I had a nap between job meetings. Today, I didn't even start working. Anxiety and tired.

I've been procrastinating a lot at work lately. Like a lot. Usually it goes "yes, tomorrow I have almost no meetings at all - finally i will have time to tackle the X problem!" Tomorrow: Starts by tackling the totally unrelated issues popping up during the day, without really finalizing them.

Back at work. Vacation always seems to be too short.

Inlaws coming for a surprise visit. Well, at least that got me into the shower. Small win!

“Brexit-optimist economist Julian Jessop, a fellow at the Institute of Economic Affairs, admitted that Brexit has made it harder or “impossible” for small businesses to adjust.” Finally.

Ive showered today! Like 8 hours after getting up at 1400. After sleeping 12h straight. Guess I needed to sleep.

Two weeks of vacation is almost up. Spent most of the time either sleeping or scrolling. Feels like I've wasted two weeks of potential creativity on nothing. Maybe I should take a shower today, not waiting 2 days? #ActuallyAutistic

Remember: A new years resolution doesn't have to be to change your behavior to better fit the society's expectations. It can be to simply remain authentic and unmask even more.

Happy new year everyone! Had a pretty calm day yesterday, although I had to withdraw for an hour after dinner.

Moment 22: After I quit job at an ex-employer, I was left with a One Drive on my personal computer, connected to my work account. Which I can't uninstall, because I need to log in to the - now suspended - work account.

I need #coffee. But I also need to lie down, close my eyes and bubble up. #ActuallyAutistic

Totally drained today. Down. Yesterday, too. 😢

And so 2+ weeks of vacation begins. Well-deserved. And since basically all colleagues are also going on vacation, I don't even have to expect a full mailbox when I return! ☺️

Performance review with my manager today. Him: I get the feeling you don't quite feel as engaged into the new ways of working as you did half a year ago, considering you've raised a few issues. Me: On the contrary, that's why I raise them.

Michio Kaku, casually - as you do - mentions "I built my own particle accelerator when I was in high school". And me? I built Lego.

FXXX! Out of the blue this morning, I got a severe anxiety attack. Was on my way to the shower, but had to run upstairs to the bed. Partner was forced to drive the kids to school, then woke me up at 1100. - Didn't you have an important meeting today? Yes. Now I feel guilt and ashamed.

Had a lunch with one of the process & operations guys today, talking about the way of working in the company. His face turned all pale, not once - but several times - as he realized how my manager is trying to dodge the wow and hide what's going on in his department. Things are spicing up.

I seem to have a tendency to piss my manager off. Well, maybe - just maybe - because he seem to be a little micromanaging and taking decisions without considering what impact they will have. But, ive got my back free. Now, we've just got to do the best of the situation.

The happiness of finding a 10—pack of electrical tape in E12 colors. Or, as normal ppl would call it "in the colors of the rainbow". Only... There's no violet! :( But, I have been labeling cables. Lots of them. Anyway!

The surprise of finding out at 1515 on the last Friday of the month, that some people have expectations on my new role to track and report certain progress on certain other teams by the end of the month - but my manager never informed me about that. After asking, he said "no, but yes". Ah well...

Finally got to actually document what I've been investigating for the last week. One task almost complete. Some questions remains, but the I can move on to the next. Nice!

Seems my manager got pissed off by me today. Because another manager and a project manager got pissed and escalated that I raised a consequence caused by the PMs inpatient to wait for confirmation regarding some important desicions. I guess it will have to be fixed with duct tape in the end...

My turn to sleep this morning. Plan was to meet up with family at the inlaws. Alarm at 1000. One hour later, partner calls and wonders if I've woken up yet. Ah well, coffee and music in car. Always something.

Partner had ordered me to take the day off today. I woke up at 1500. Guess I needed some sleep.

I lost track of how many times I fell asleep on the highway to work today. Not sure I managed to keep my eyes open as much as they were closed. Truly amazing I didnt veer off the road. Im too old for getting up early after going to bed late.

After a day of working from the couch or bed (well, mostly responding to questions on chat), managed to take a quick trip to Denmark for a stand-up comedy show, then directly back home again. Felt good to laugh a bit. It's been a while.

Holy fxxx! Stayed up to watch spacex do another launch of Starship. Two really nice splashdowns, and no RUD!