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man, I'm gonna be 24 this year & I've already been like this for a decade already... I can't even imagine how many times in the future I'm gonna believe that I'm good, & then here I go falling back into that cycle.

ngl I've also been thinking ab what I would be like as an old person.... imagining the caretakers trying to get me to have a bm and I literally can't cause I spent all of my adolescence fucking myself up w lax LMFAOOO like no I have to d13 before that happens😭😭

y’all for months I had been trying to figure out WHY the notifications for this app were being so weird….. I forgot to add it in my focus LMFAO 😭 I always have focus on at all times 🫣

this might be so tmi LMFAO but ykw ppl l0s3 w31ght, they always say how you l0s3 it EVERYWHERE… anyways I am like 5lbs away from officially l0sing 100lbs from my hw & I still have a f4t4ss moose knuckle like wtf😭💀 it ain’t my first time l0sing either but damn, she don’t wanna let go of anything rn😫

my intestines sounding crazy rn wth

my mom asked how I lost w31ght bc she and her coworkers are doing a wl chall3ng3🧍‍♀️so I was like umm I stopped 3at1ng so much when I was bored & walked more💀💀 girl I am the wrong person to ask bc I did everything you're not supposed to😔😭 just lying out my ass atp.

gassy and for what😒

literally why am I so greasy rn wtf

the way I’m at a kids bday party rn & there was pizza and cake…. I’ve been eating the lifesavers wintergreen mints😭 on #3 rn💀

I am the queen of eating undercooked noodles, winning the idgaf war

an ice cold thai tea w coconut milk sounds sooo good rn ugh

what makes ch33s3 so good

these 3lbs won’t let me go wtff

guess I’m gonna go to sleep now cause why tf am I HUNGRY?!?

getting to the ch3st/armp1t part of the vest I'm kn1tt1ng and omg this is so fun and exciting. this is my 1st one EVER and I think I am going to go bananas after this and make so many😭 it's for my uncle's bday in may & I'm probably going to embro1der some orch1ds onto it since he grows them :)

nearly 1500 today wow, gonna have a completely normal reaction to that😀👍 this better make me shit, I swear

just feeling so down lately wtf

think it’s time for me to go sh0pp1ng for better fitting clothes but FUUUCCCKKK I don’t wanna spend nothing until I’m closer to my gw😭😭😭😭 like shirts I can modify easily, but JEANS?? how tf do I make the legs fit correctly if they’re too big😭😭

650 on a smoothie, who’s ready to gently kiss my hand before you smack me over the head w a brick?😀

dude I just got 2 of those stupid t0ll r0ad sc4m texts in the last 30 mins…. next one I’m gonna reply back with some ugly words

MY TUMMY 😭

tried making a bagel w yogurt & flour… didn’t measure anything. Baked it for half the time so it was raw-ish in the middle but I was so hungry that I pulled it out & ate it anyways🫣 well I gave half to my brother to try & help myself💀 not worth it but I wanted to eat n lax so bad😫

just gonna put the rest of my clothes away and go to sleep. ignore this lil pity party I had going on y’all🤧

ik atp I’m just picking at myself but wtf I have no sense of style omfg. ik what I WANT to dress like, but at some point I have to realize that I will not have the body in those 1nsp0 pics. even if I w31gh3d nearly the same as those girls, I will have so much l00se sk1n, it ain’t even funny.

bruh I deadass should’ve kay-em-ess before I gained like double my weight in 2020-2021 holy shit. the damage I did to my body is insaneeee like wtf. I’m fitting into my hs clothes rn but that’s not saying much lmfao.

n4k3d in front of my mirror and I feel like my ch3st looks so wrong. but I can’t tell if I would like them GONE or bigger. I realllyyy want to lose as much as possible before I revisit this train of thought cause it might be that thay’re extremely disproportionate to my body :/

PLEASE MARCH, BE KIND TO ME!!!!😭😭😭

just been informed that there’s going to be a beach family trip at the end of april ahaha😀

sometimes I think like man,?what if I do have something worth d1agn0s1ng but I just never got tested bc I was just a little girl and they thought I was just a b1tch all around lmao

y’all think I can drop 5 by the end of feb? 🫣 I’m feeling delulu rn😙

thought ab how close my bday is & how I still haven’t lost the w31ght I wanted & now I have fresh tears in my eyes 😃

AND I just took duc0 before all this, now I feel sick and I just KNOW I will be waking up w a headache 🙁

bro my 4 yr old cousin is lying down next to me on his ipad and I’m over here having a full on MOMENT crying over deaths that haven’t even happened yet, like I’m desperately trying to hold in my sobs and wipe my eyes so he won’t see😭💀💀 I just hear him clicking onto the next y0utub3 video LMFAOO

telling myself if I somehow lose 30 and keep it off this year that I’ll finally deserve that C0ral1ne tat I’ve always wanted to design & get done🥲

- fast until i lose 5lb - eat 500 cals - fast until i lose 5lb - eat 500 cals - fast until i lose 5lb - eat 500 cals - fast until i lose 5lb - eat 500 cals - binge on the entire kitchen and start over -kill self

i want a walking pad so bad ughhghhehs

I’m ngl these are the hardest 10lbs I’ve ever been stuck in… they won’t leave me alone😭😭😭

ok I’m ngl, the way that “alm0nd daughter” is being used on that clock app is making my eye twitch

just wanna eat soup for the rest of the year :( sooouuuuppp🫦

3lbs up, I’m being so normal ab this rn😀

scared to check the numbers after yesterday 😔

also it’s barely 53°f here and my nose is running like a mf, wth😣💔

finally took a shit after a week💪🏽🔥

watching L&O SVU from the beginning while I clean and I lowkey forgot how crazy they were talking on here😭 qu33r & tr4ns ppl were catching strays for no reason💀 like what did we do LMAO