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claypb.bsky.social
Gamer trying his best to live through anxiety. Prob just going to use that account to vent and record in case i do something stupid
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You know this world is fucked when Amouranth gets back with an abusive husband but i'm not even allowed a conversation to talk things out to try and fix things or a break up for some goddamn closure.

submitted 11 days ago • 0 comments

Fml..

submitted 36 days ago • 0 comments

The "Mirage" was my relationship all along, huh?..

submitted 41 days ago • 0 comments

I just want to share moments like these with you..

submitted 46 days ago • 0 comments

I'm not sure how long i can keep going without you, feels like i'm just driving straight into a brick wall. Everything is just worthless right now.

submitted 51 days ago • 0 comments

:(

submitted 65 days ago • 0 comments

It's crazy how someone can switch on you in a matter of hours. Going from saying she's there for you, willing to hear you out and then dumping a text full of lies as soon as you fall asleep and ghosts you for months. And i let her ruin my life for her happiness? Craaaaaaaaaaaaaazy. Love is Blind fr.

submitted 70 days ago • 0 comments

If i had known, i wouldn't have taken those 2 weeks vacation to go over there. Spending them fucking gaming or crying. At least i would've made more money before school starts...

submitted 78 days ago • 0 comments

It hurts..................................

submitted 79 days ago • 0 comments

I wish i could've spent the day outside with you like i had planned.. sharing a kiss under those fireworks...................

submitted 79 days ago • 0 comments

Tonight isn't easy..

submitted 85 days ago • 0 comments

Merry Christmas..

submitted 87 days ago • 0 comments

This Christmas was supposed to be the one where i spent the week with her in Vancouver, was going to surprise her and bring her happiness (hopefully..). It's a whole different scenario, one that i never expected and i'm REALLY struggling... Trying to stay occupied at all times so i don't spiral :/

submitted 87 days ago • 0 comments

Why did it have to be like this, why not just talk it out to get the point through, REALLY try to understand the issue. For someone that really cared, that would NEVER leave, that really was in love and apparently serious.... Things just don't make sense :(

submitted 92 days ago • 0 comments

I miss you so bad.. My days feels empty without you. But pride built a wall i guess and you need to take it down. I can manage and navigate through the storm, as i've done before. I knew what i signed up for..

submitted 97 days ago • 0 comments

Won't have internet for a couple of days until the new place is wired. I'll still check Discord somewhat daily so DM there if needed. Wish you guys a good weekend. :)

submitted 105 days ago • 0 comments

Today at work i was on the same shift as a guy i knew last year and they gave it to me and i just had to take it. Calling me stupid for choosing love over my job last year. It caused issues because of my sleeping schedule so i had to pick, i tried many times to gently tell her to fix her schedule.

submitted 108 days ago • 0 comments

Moving out on the 7th and i'm freaking out a little bit. With almost a complete stranger too, interacted with them a few times and she was nice but... idk. Always imagined it was going to be with "her" instead.. Idk why it had to be like that when all i wanted was a partner to support me, to listen.

submitted 109 days ago • 1 comment

Today i sold her multiple (Nov4th) birthday gifts that i bought in august and i feel so guilty.. even if i waited a while in hopes that something happened. I'll need the money soon and i could offer my family something with it too i guess.. at least THEY are trying to be there for me.. ☹️If she knew.

submitted 116 days ago • 0 comments

I have never been ghosted or dumped by text before this but i assume i would've preferred to be dumped by text. My overthinking ass trying to be hopeful and make things make sense because i can't handle that. Been spiraling and depressed for almost 3months now, just waiting for a sign.

submitted 120 days ago • 1 comment