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I don't know why I was born, why I've survived all that I have... I was never made to feel true happiness, let alone have the ability to bring it to someone else...

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I hate that my illness makes up how scenarios should go. They never go that way and it makes the pain so much worse.

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She says she hasn't made a choice but everything she says just screams to me she can't deal with me. Not that I blame her. My head has me prepared to have my heart ripped out. To finally give up on love, for the confirmation that I am unlovable and happiness was never meant for me, I'm worthless...

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I've been screenshoting anything I see that could help her understand how my mind works but I know it's all in vain. She'll either not look at them or flat out, not care. And I can't handle that. I just need one person to get it, for HER to get it.

submitted 13 days ago • 0 comments

'I love you more' Sure... because this is totally nice to say to someone. Who the fuck cares how much misery I've suffered for the past 4 years trying to fix things... I'd never say such a thing to anyone, especially to my partner...

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🎵 I guess that some of us Are just born with tragedy In our blood It's just basic chemistry🎵 The one thought that hasn't and never will go away is what did I ever do to deserve such a loveless life from the day I was born? Why was I placed on these hellish plains just to burn alive since birth...

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All I can keep hearing in my head is her saying 'I don't trust you anymore' and it hurts so bad. It took her years to break mine, yet all it took was one time to lose hers, because of a mental illness telling me I'm going to get hurt so run. Yet she 'loves me more'... sure.

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I've been in a prison of my mental illness for over 20 years. I've hurt so many people,ruin so many relationships of both friend and other. It has plague me for so long yet one time kills trust. I don't even know why I bother... can't imagine why I've been planning to kill myself after my pet dies.

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I wanna tear my flesh open.

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Talk about hurting so badly. 17 years of never breaking trust, 17 years of not letting BPD push you to end the relationship, even if things got so bad for both. I've been being killed for 5 years straight yet I stayed, yet I tried to rebuild broken trust on the other end, yet one time is enough.

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Imagine in 17 years, in the worst part of your life your mental illness, BPD, which is out of your control overreacts and tells you to run away because you were badly triggered over something so important to you. So your brain says run, and that one time is enough to where you can't trust the other.

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I don't know why I'm dumb enough to trust the person who has broken my heart again and again for false hope of a better tomorrow.

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Killing myself when my pet dies is back on everyone! =D

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Bonus therapy appointment in two days cause I cut my arm and was forced to tell I've been planning to kill myself sometime in the future once my pet passes away. Woohoo! 👁👅👁

submitted 16 days ago • 0 comments

I really want a cute thing to pin telling about myself like many people have but I'm way too lazy to even figure out how to do so. D,=

submitted 20 days ago • 0 comments

My Kira is old, and i almost lost him a few months ago... I'd never forgive myself if he died when I was away... he wouldn't understand why I'm gone anyway, a few days is so long for a rat...

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Welp... as expected my therapist wants me to get evaluated because I plan to kill myself when my pet rat, Kira, dies. Because I can't promise I won't hurt myself. My options were go willingly or forcefully... I agreed willingly but I'm not being taken. Let the paranoia begin of someone coming...

submitted 20 days ago • 0 comments

I wish she'd be understanding about my BPD and try to learn about it properly... Anytime I ever sent her any kind of video or picture with information she ignores it... Why is trying to be understood so hard...

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Therapy time, yay. Time to get outed over my selfharm (which as far as they know, are just four scratches. Shhh don't tell them about my upper arm I showed a picture of).

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I have therapy in 2 hours, but I don't want to go. I have no reason to get better anymore, which was the whole point. I only have a few years left in this world anyway.

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The pain of hearing from the person you love that they aren't sure they can change how you need them to is unimaginable. Especially when all you want and need is some gentleness, understanding, clear affection and care. I never thought wanting and needing those things was too much to ask for...

submitted 20 days ago • 0 comments

She said I changed since I discovered I have BPD and yeah, I have. Knowing the different things that come with it that I fought through made me proud. Knowing that self harm comes with it made me not feel so overdramatic when I wanted to open my flesh up. And knowing I'll never be okay broke me.

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I want to kill myself & start fresh 💞

submitted 52 days ago • 3 comments

i knew this would happen, so why am i angry? everyone gets tired of me eventually.

submitted 42 days ago • 0 comments

There's a world of hurt in us And maybe once we spill our guts We can stitch ourselves back up #slitsky #slitbsky #shsky #shbsky #shtwt #sh #selfharm #BMTH

submitted 20 days ago • 0 comments

I don't know what's going to happen but today I woke up feeling mad different, in a good way. Just not sure if that's true or the mental illness making me think so, which is my -favorite- game to play. ❤️

submitted 35 days ago • 0 comments

i hate how easy it is for my moods to switch. i need a lobotomy.

submitted 36 days ago • 2 comments

17 years and it's over... I have no idea if it's best but in death that won't matter.

submitted 36 days ago • 0 comments

@44phantom.bsky.social I can't put into words how much I love you and your music. ❤️ Found you from your collab with MGK and been hooked since. My daily playlist is you, MGK, BMTH, and Yungblud.

submitted 36 days ago • 0 comments

It has to be tonight but it's the biggest decision of my life. Anxiety is sky high despite being on max meds. I feel sick. 🙃

submitted 36 days ago • 0 comments

It'd be nice if I could hold and give lots of love to my pet without crying my eyes out every time because he's the only thing keeping me alive.

submitted 37 days ago • 0 comments

I don't know why I was born, why I've survived all that I have... I was never made to feel true happiness, let alone have the ability to bring it to someone else...

I hate that my illness makes up how scenarios should go. They never go that way and it makes the pain so much worse.

She says she hasn't made a choice but everything she says just screams to me she can't deal with me. Not that I blame her. My head has me prepared to have my heart ripped out. To finally give up on love, for the confirmation that I am unlovable and happiness was never meant for me, I'm worthless...

I've been screenshoting anything I see that could help her understand how my mind works but I know it's all in vain. She'll either not look at them or flat out, not care. And I can't handle that. I just need one person to get it, for HER to get it.

'I love you more' Sure... because this is totally nice to say to someone. Who the fuck cares how much misery I've suffered for the past 4 years trying to fix things... I'd never say such a thing to anyone, especially to my partner...

All I can keep hearing in my head is her saying 'I don't trust you anymore' and it hurts so bad. It took her years to break mine, yet all it took was one time to lose hers, because of a mental illness telling me I'm going to get hurt so run. Yet she 'loves me more'... sure.

I've been in a prison of my mental illness for over 20 years. I've hurt so many people,ruin so many relationships of both friend and other. It has plague me for so long yet one time kills trust. I don't even know why I bother... can't imagine why I've been planning to kill myself after my pet dies.

I wanna tear my flesh open.

Talk about hurting so badly. 17 years of never breaking trust, 17 years of not letting BPD push you to end the relationship, even if things got so bad for both. I've been being killed for 5 years straight yet I stayed, yet I tried to rebuild broken trust on the other end, yet one time is enough.

Imagine in 17 years, in the worst part of your life your mental illness, BPD, which is out of your control overreacts and tells you to run away because you were badly triggered over something so important to you. So your brain says run, and that one time is enough to where you can't trust the other.

I don't know why I'm dumb enough to trust the person who has broken my heart again and again for false hope of a better tomorrow.

Killing myself when my pet dies is back on everyone! =D

Bonus therapy appointment in two days cause I cut my arm and was forced to tell I've been planning to kill myself sometime in the future once my pet passes away. Woohoo! 👁👅👁

I really want a cute thing to pin telling about myself like many people have but I'm way too lazy to even figure out how to do so. D,=

My Kira is old, and i almost lost him a few months ago... I'd never forgive myself if he died when I was away... he wouldn't understand why I'm gone anyway, a few days is so long for a rat...

Welp... as expected my therapist wants me to get evaluated because I plan to kill myself when my pet rat, Kira, dies. Because I can't promise I won't hurt myself. My options were go willingly or forcefully... I agreed willingly but I'm not being taken. Let the paranoia begin of someone coming...

I wish she'd be understanding about my BPD and try to learn about it properly... Anytime I ever sent her any kind of video or picture with information she ignores it... Why is trying to be understood so hard...

Therapy time, yay. Time to get outed over my selfharm (which as far as they know, are just four scratches. Shhh don't tell them about my upper arm I showed a picture of).

I have therapy in 2 hours, but I don't want to go. I have no reason to get better anymore, which was the whole point. I only have a few years left in this world anyway.

The pain of hearing from the person you love that they aren't sure they can change how you need them to is unimaginable. Especially when all you want and need is some gentleness, understanding, clear affection and care. I never thought wanting and needing those things was too much to ask for...

She said I changed since I discovered I have BPD and yeah, I have. Knowing the different things that come with it that I fought through made me proud. Knowing that self harm comes with it made me not feel so overdramatic when I wanted to open my flesh up. And knowing I'll never be okay broke me.

I want to kill myself & start fresh 💞

i knew this would happen, so why am i angry? everyone gets tired of me eventually.

There's a world of hurt in us And maybe once we spill our guts We can stitch ourselves back up #slitsky #slitbsky #shsky #shbsky #shtwt #sh #selfharm #BMTH

I don't know what's going to happen but today I woke up feeling mad different, in a good way. Just not sure if that's true or the mental illness making me think so, which is my -favorite- game to play. ❤️

i hate how easy it is for my moods to switch. i need a lobotomy.

17 years and it's over... I have no idea if it's best but in death that won't matter.

@44phantom.bsky.social I can't put into words how much I love you and your music. ❤️ Found you from your collab with MGK and been hooked since. My daily playlist is you, MGK, BMTH, and Yungblud.

It has to be tonight but it's the biggest decision of my life. Anxiety is sky high despite being on max meds. I feel sick. 🙃

It'd be nice if I could hold and give lots of love to my pet without crying my eyes out every time because he's the only thing keeping me alive.

Friends- I am always here for you. Also friends - never replies to long ass breakdown desperately needing help

My new @ handle is proof of how mentally immature I am. Lmao

good morning

Who else? 😅