estel-cat.bsky.social
Middle-earth wanderer.
(A roleplay/fandom account.
Estel = IC, Cat = OOC)
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Which is my slightly silly way of saying: This is/was just normal fandom behaviour to me, before a certain kind of 'fan' came along and yucked everybody else's yum with their made up "rules" about what people are "allowed" to do in fandom in general.
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A pairing of two characters who exist in the same canon, but have never interacted?
Nature (fandom) is healing 🥰
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So it makes sense that feeling someone else's feelings is not making a clear picture because you are not seeing how they feel about or interpret their feelings, you are just feeling them?
And I am not listening closely to people, I am just feeling that they are being there and knowing they exist
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That makes sense, I think, because even the person feeling a thing does not always know what they are feeling.
And feelings are... what someone is experiencing. Thoughts are what they are thinking about what they are experiencing.
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Empathy is when you know,or feel,other people's feelings?
That could be what the passive listening part is like - I do not know how it feels for you,to compare
The active listening has different levels, I suppose of... my first thought is 'depth' but invasiveness is the most accurate, I believe
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I will never be who I was then, and in some ways I mind this and then again I do not.
I am still not sure if I am answering the question you are really wanting to ask. Please, do ask again, if I am not.
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That is also what I thought I was referring to, but perhaps I was still answering a different question to the one you were asking…
I… In some ways, I do not feel much different. In other ways…
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It is but one of the ways in which I am a delight *laughingly*
Also, fingernails are surprisingly more complicated than they look on other people, but I digress - and I am trying not to ^^
Hmm.
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I do not listen, actively, to most of it unless I am choosing to.
Also, I think, my mind is not like yours - that is, like a physical being's.
I have a lot more... space? to store all of that without having to actually process it.
It would drive a more physically limited mind mad.
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This is how I am always able to find my friends.
But it is not thoughts, at that point, or - it is but it is also just noise in the way that everything else is.
So I am filtering them in the same way I am ignoring the way every blade of grass is a slight variation on the same series of notes.
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*blinks slowly* I am imagining it now, and I think I did not entirely-entirely understand before. My dear, that is.... I am glad distance does help.
Well. Distance is essentially a meaningless concept to me; I hear everything, all of the time.
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I would be delighted, my friend, spending time with you and your siblings is one of my favourite things to do 🥰
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🧡🧡🧡
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Here is the whole comic page✨
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Come to the dark side, we have cookies 😆
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I think, the biggest change I feel between now and then is that, when I arrived I was alone and... disconnected from ... I did not and still do not entirely know what.
Now, there are people and places everywhere in this world that I am connected to. I need only -listen- and I can feel them.
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I am tempted to make a joke about how part of me is currently lying down in a field of flowers, attempting to solve the mystery of fingernails, but that would be something of a digression *chuckles briefly*
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*they blink and return to the question at hand*
This seems *with some amusement* like a question it would be very easy to think too much about.
A comparison between my past self and my present one. Hmm.
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I am not so sure if this is a biped difference, or a language difference... but, either way, I understand your question now.
*For a moment, their gaze is far away, as it so rarely is when they are with Adar*
A place so far away that even your gods have not seen it, and do not know it.
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You are very welcome 💕🧡
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It is a lovely drawable profile/face 🥰
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My first thought is "Only some?"
But you are a busy person, you cannot be terrifying all of the gods, all the time 🤭
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All Elves are 🏳️🌈
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Oh! I had forgotten how gorgeous this one is!
The colours, and the faces, and the movement 🧡
Another favourite 🥰
(I say this about many but that is because they are all my favourite 🧡🧡)
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I love his face in this picture, the profile is 🧡🧡
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Our exquisite cosmic terror is indeed the best 🥰🧡
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*now Estel is quiet as they consider this surprisingly (to them) tricky question*
Are we talking about a specific part of the past - like "since you have been in Middle-earth" - or just... all of it?
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I meant me, as well. You asked if I consider myself someone who has changed, and I am always changing.
But the way I feel, that is a different question, really, to whether there -is- change.
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Because they like to be with you, and you care for them, and you find ways to know about each other even though you do not speak words together *nods*
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The next thing you know, you're the old man yelling at the sky about how "best friends in the same show" is one of the least 'crack ship' scenarios imaginable 😛
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And to be able to do this does require empathy. If one cannot feel that for other people, in some way, then one cannot really see them *as* people.
That is what I think, anyway.
Has changed, does change, is changing - change, by nature, is not a static or finite process.
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*Estel considers then nods* I think that is the essence of it, yes. The idea that sentient beings -can- meet, knowing nothing or very little of each other - not even the words they speak, and find ways to communicate with each other because they have things in common nonetheless.
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Memo to self: don't click that tag for you are aged in fandom and people no longer know what "crack ship" *means*.
Anyway, hi, I am here, on this very empty ship with room for so many new friends! 🥰
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I love your angsty mind but this is also gorgeous 💕
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Well.
This one is just as incredibl band definitely about a million times more devastating.
Not to be dramatic or anything 😆
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🥺💔💕
I know, and that is so... There are so many emotions about that, especially when you start thinking about everything all of them went through 🥺
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But by getting to know each other even without words.
The words are more convenient though ^^
Friendship, any relationship really, should be adaptable, I think. People are changing all of the time, it would not make sense to try and maintain a rigid structure.
It is just true, I always miss you
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Knowing the same words is important, they make it much easier to share ideas and thoughts and feelings about things, even when they do not always behave as one would like.
But with some people, I think, one could do this without knowing the same words.
I do not mean by sharing Maeglin's ability
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It is very easy to be happy and also confused, especially when is with friends who speak an entirely different language *laughs playfully*
*mods* Just a little while ago, I was thinking I had missed something, and then I realised I had not talked to you for several days. It felt longer ^^
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My happiness, my confusion, or both?
Probably you have seen most all of my moods, now I think about it ^_^
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Of course *softly*
*sits next to Maeglin, so quietly they are almost seeming not to be there except that they are very clearly visible*
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*chuckles*
That is good, sometimes you want to be the only person in your head, I think?
Does that work with your other mind hearing as well - if you are not near people, you cannot hear them?
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I should probably have clarified on whether 'could' is also excluded 🤔
'could' means there is a chance, but it is not a certainty - this is not the same as definite death.
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You have also never been snack hunting with me 😌 I know all of the *best* places.
Some of which contain deadly flora, which will kill even my dear Uruk friends.
And I promised your father I would not let his children eat anything that would kill them ^^
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Usually c. and d.
Often at the same time ^_^