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I use to be a vibrant person but now I'm just a hopeless shell waiting to die
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I did mutual aid once, then they went and bought Yu-Gi-Oh cards with the money they said they needed to eat. So yeah...

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I'm 35, unemployed, blacklisted from my career, and trans. It doesnt get better.

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who could have predicted moving states to be alone would be a bad idea? only everybokldy well it was this or living in a van and well i would have blown my head of weeks ago wiyth vanlife

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it hurts my eyes to wear my glasses now, i struggle to even make it through a shopping trip, what the fuck am I suppose to do day to day?

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hey penny, you should stick around, maybe the facism will lose and you can live your life! Yeah, but I still lose my fucking eyesight!

submitted 4 days ago • 1 comment

honestly the hardest part of accepting my suicide is just how little of a ripple it will have. Ill be forgotten in days if not hours, and that does hurt. Like hey, I ewxisted for 35 years here, but I was so bad at it, that no one missed me.

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Before I kill myself, I will move out of where I live, give away most of my belongings, find a home for the cat, and work on my will. I don't want my suicide to impact or be a hinderance to those around me. I think i will commit suicide in the desert, somewhere i can see the stars. I want to look

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It will probably be a relief when I finally do it, but just to be crystal clear, let me outline how my suicide will go when I decide it happens, so that there caN be no confusion about when its coming.

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and im not completely alone, I have a handful of people, but god I know they are tired of this conversation, of worrying about their suicidal friend well good news, Im not suicidal, Im just terrified of this wor;d and dont have the courage to continue

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God I wish you could have known the penny full of kindness and hope, she was a good person, at least she was trying. All that is left inside of me is hatred and fear and it is killing me

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I know what I am, I am that girl online who has trainwrecked her life and now is just nonstop depression, most people mute or unfollow. But I once was so much more, at least I had hope of being more. I know Im not everyone's cup of tea, but evedn I dont wanna die. I want to live and create and so m

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I'm exhausted From knowing how much I'm hated From the daily micro aggressions From the headlines From the discourse From the job hunt From feeling completely isolated in a house full of people From knowing we have no future From sobbing in my room quietly From watching hope die From life.

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i just need a fucking friend someone to go on walks to talk to god im so fucking alone here

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yeah thats silly, im not relevant enough anyone would even pretend to care

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i wonder how many people ive lost because of depression, no one wants to be around a downer, they dont want to be your best friend until youre already dead and they can farm sympathy online

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So much for carbon monoxide asphyxiation, I have rectangular tail pipes

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Excuse me, for not wanting to live in the reality where evil wins

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genocide, fascism, hate, violence what the fuck am i supposed to do about any of this shit? lets just hope all of us die so this misery producing machine called humanity ends

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God, how hilarious would it be if Iran had nukes right now and just deleted Israel from the map?

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please somebody adopt my cat so I can go ahead and kill myself, Ill pay you.

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I ❤ libraries.

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Guess who walked out the door today with nothing for self defense

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Like wtf I’m going for walks to relax and now I’m in fear begging a stranger to let me walk with them past this creep

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BUY PEPPER SPRAY

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60 seconds after these pictures were taken, a man started to masturbate in front of me.

submitted 5 days ago • 1 comment

Siri, play Mad World by Gary Jules

submitted 9 days ago • 0 comments

What a fucking mistake all of this was.

submitted 10 days ago • 1 comment

One day I will find someone to care for my cat and then I can die in peace.

submitted 10 days ago • 0 comments

even a run couldn't break this spiral two hours of the river and fantasizing about ways to kill myself top contender currently is shooting myself on top of the lock while blasting a blutooth speaker

submitted 11 days ago • 1 comment