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It's not even July yet, and the neighbors are setting off fireworks ffs i hate things. I hate loud bangs being an anxiety/ ptsd trigger.

Anyone know of any freeware similar to Metasynth?

I feel so shitty for getting nothing done again.

Lol I'm waiting for the moment Anthrocon makes you put pants over your Full Suit too.

So yeah.. may be a few more delays on stuff since I need to avoid more stress I guess? But I don't want to hold up people more, fuck.

Said health scare, means I get to relaxe in the tub for a little while. Like actually it's part of the prescription. Also avoiding heavy lifting, bending down, or too much stress in general until the problem clears up.

Had a slight health scare this morning (I'm fine). It's a bit embarrassing to talk about. I just need to get some things you wouldn't want anyone else seeing you with at checkout.

Heck I may be a bit too addicted to Dune: Awakening. I'm soloing too 5 in the Landsraad on my medium pop server for House Atreides. I'm outpacing several guilds (and an entire second faction) as a single player.

Ohno

Medicare why the fuck are you sending me more and more emails like this with increasing frequency??

I'm really sorry about being so bad about keeping in contact with people. I love having other's attention alot, but I was also basically raised to believe my mere presence was the worst possible thing I could ever inflict on someone. I never really learned to do small talk ever with anyone. ;.;

Help. My kitty is an idiot and she keeps trying to eat tinfoil.

One more project basiclaly ready for post-processing. Need to do background on another. I want to do one big upload maybe. I'm sorry to those who follow me for content and just get an endless stream of me bitching lol.

I really really wish i could financially survive without commissions sometimes. I might at least try taking less. I keep saying this, I keep telling myself this. It never happens no matter how much I overwhelm and hurt myself. I hate needing money to live above bare depressive subsistence.

I'm kind of in love with the building system in Dune: Awakening. It's just very good. I made a little base for our two man guild and I keep making hidden spots all over the place for people to discover. This is all part of the same structure.

I'm like, in the final stretch of getting this massive pile of several animated pieces done but I'm at peak burnout. Just on the edge of not working again for a long, long, long long long time fuck.

Most painful side effects are going away from the other meds~ So i should be alright uwu;

"Princess Puppy-Bomb" is Therins official royal title btw uwu'' probably because of how needy and stuffed and helplessly bloated they always are.

Also, already took old meds again, already feeling significant improvement. Aches are going away steadily.

Man legit too lazy to park and paid for it.

So yeah, its not withdrawals. It's just the Strattera making me sick. Need to go back to old meds.

Med side effects are putting me in a very very distracting amount of pain and general malaise. I straight up can't get anything done rn. I can barely even use the restroom. I have an emergency phone appointment in like 30 minutes.

I probably need to switch back to Adderal, I'm getting very unpleasant side effects rn.

Ngl I kind of just pass out when I would normally start working during the day now aaaa. I try to get straight to animating right after. I got two pieces that just need sound/post before I upload. It's just very hard to focus rn.

Why do I have so many sleep problems aaa

This is how I wait for @grimmroo.bsky.social to log in at their base on Dune Awakening.

Managed to get my EBT increased by like.. alot. I just mentioned during my yearly interview that I was assisting with utilities every other month .-.; I should have alot more food security.

I'm functioning kinda like a chair with a broken leg propped up with some books I guess.

I'm still alive, I think. Idk if the new meds help or not because coming off the old ones still practically has me aggressively ill.

I'm realizing I've been publicly doing this like 10+ years and have gotten fan work from people less times than I can count on one hand. Tbh I feel kinda bad getting free stuff and I'm too anxious to ask people for trades.

Trying so hard to focus on any sort of art rn but blanking so much aaaaa.

Fuuuck I keep falling asleep for like 2+hrs mid day. Coming off adderal really is the worst.

My Dune:Awakening server got upgrades to medium population this weekend. There's just a small neighborhood of player bases forming around mine. I keep revving by ornithoptor at 5 am to fuck with them.

Changing meds feels fucking horrible still.

I want a reeses the size of a trashcan lid.

Strattera got approved/covered. Here's hoping I adjust to it well. I know I'm gonna not feel good the first few days while I come off the Adderall.

May be switching from Adderall to Strattera if my insurance is willing to not be dogshit for 10 minutes. If it works well I won't need to deal with controlled substance nonsense anymore.