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#HGGA 🎮 she/they. neurodivergent 18+ affiliate streamer. cozy, horror, rpgs, and more. doom metal🤘🏻mental health 💜 Louisiana to Wyo [email protected] Twitch.tv/harbingerofbeth #twitch #streamer #horror #anime #cozygames #metal #mentalhealth
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I have no money rn but i somehow found the funds to buy Disco Elysium at one of the cheapest prices I've seen on the PS5 store. If you're wanting this game check it out!

I have a work meeting at 8 and I am in ADHD limbo 😬

Stream was awesome! I had to sadly end a little early because of not feeling well, but it was a lot of fun seeing friends, unboxing, doing makeup, and chilling. And Fields of Mistria looks really cute. I'll have to check it out more on stream later. Thanks for the support!

Thanks for your patience! Finally live now! Going for a nighttime glam makeup look during my grwm, then switching it up to Fields of Mystria. Https://www.twitch.tv/harbingerofbeth

Sorry that I am running so late for stream. It's still happening, there's nothing after to prevent me from streaming later today, so I will post a going live notice once I do. Thanks for your patience! I have had a hard time being sleepy, it seems like the hypomania may be wearing off.

Doctor appointments went well, I can start doing light weight workouts with my shoulder and if it hurts just do a different movement. I'm so excited to get back to the gym! Sad to hear I shouldn't lift heavy any more, but anything is better than nothing.

Stream later today! But first, doctor appointments.

Officially re-applied to my college! Let's see what happens!

I share about my mental health both to break the stigma and to let y'all know why I might be weirder than normal 😅

Just ordered a knock-off apple pencil so I can at least do a little with it. I'm not sure how great it will be for drawing 🤷‍♀️ but it will be nice to have something to use with my ipad.

Much needed therapy session this morning. Still pretty hypomanic. I need guidance on what to do about my meds, they're helping with my pain but because I missed the stabilizing med for a few days I think I may have fucked up the dose increase 😅😅😭😭 I'm gonna see if she thinks I should see my doctor.

Last year, my dear friend and mod gave me a shower chair. I'm ashamed to say it has sat in the spare room bc I was too stubborn to use it. But showers can be super hard for me. I've been using it this week and wow! Such a difference. Just use the damn mobility aid.

Hey stream schedule, long time no see! Here are this week's streams!

Just sent an email to the university's admissions department with some questions about re-enrolling. Excited to get in the trenches with college this fall!

In the last few days I've had some really nice compliments from friends. From the bottom of my heart, I'm grateful for my friends 🥰

Talk nerdy to me. Seriously. One of my favorite things is when people nerd out and talk about their favorite topics to me. Bonus points for anime and gaming.

Back to One Piece tonight. And had yet another cosplay idea 👀 I'm up to like 5 one piece characters I want to cosplay. Don't ask me who 😉

Just placed my first order for cosplay materials thanks to an anonymous friend! I can't believe this is happening!

Colourpop Valentine's mystery box is arriving today!!!! Unboxing video coming soon!!! Much excite!

Just watched the latest epi of solo leveling. I'm enjoying that show so much!

I know storebought cosplays are okay but I'm so so excited to get my sewing machine tunes up so I can re-teach myself to sew and make my own costumes.

I am so so ready to finish getting stuff for my mini photo studio and cosplays so I can start working on this project! I have a cart full of stuff just waiting for payday haha.

Thank you to everyone who's been encouraging about my sexy cosplay announcement. I want to get into burlesque but I'm not in a position to right now and this is a creative outlet for me. I'm really excited to show you what I've been planning.

Another big announcement! I've wanted to do this for a while. I am starting a patreon for risqué (not nude) cosplay looks. I will definitely be sharing tamer looks on instagram, but want to have a place to explore sexier looks. Some stuff will be free so when I launch the page be sure to follow!

So you all know how I love Zenni Optical and have a l*nk (in comments) you can use to support me and find cool glasses? Well I'm so excited to announce they selected me for a free pair of Blokz lenses along with some truly delightful frames! I can't wait to debut my new pair for all of you!

It's so weird to be hypomanic. I know I'm mentally like a bit unstable and it's not a good thing, but I feel so happy and vibrant 😅 like flowers trail down my path when I walk. Bipolar 2 is wild. I honestly think I'm handling it okay though. In trying not to make any rash decisions.

Welll i guess it is a night that is not for sleeping lol.

I'm jamming to the new Weeknd album and it's so good. Feeling chatty af but everyone's sleeping 😅

Doing my taxes!

Soo when it comes to Marvel Rivals, I'm obsessed! I love Psylocke, Squirrel Girl, and Jeff! I'm trying to get better at Magik. So loving this game.

Being hypomanic is *the worst* bc I can't figure out what is real and what is me making plans that will never come to fruition. I am always ambitious. It's just that when I'm hypomanic not all my plans are wise. Ugh. I went up to a therapy session every week. I will roll up in my pj's if I have to.

I'm chomping at the bit to get my tattoo next week 😍 I haven't had ink in five years. It's my favorite thing 😍

Today's exercise was shoveling snow, lmao. I tried to engage my core and make my movements precise. Which was difficult because I may have waited too long, idk, it's hard to time bc it was still snowing earlier. Anyway, it was hard but I did it 😅

I want to go thrifting so so bad! I want to get little goth thingies I can put on my shelves behind my computer and find a big mirror. Can't wait for those bigger paychecks haha.

We're back at it again with the ReFantazio of Metaphorsss! Let's have some fun and gather our supple loaves! twitch.tv/ultravalencia

I think I'm going to clean all day. I want to clean my bathroom top to bottom and get rid of stuff, and clean off my coffee table for sure 😅 I just want to make a neater house lately.

I've been listening to Welcome to Nightvale again. Weirdly it can calm me down and help me sleep. Which is slightly annoying because I want to listen to it!

Stream was so fun! Unfortunately I did have to wrap up a few hours earlier than planned due to not feeling well. Thank you to everyone for the raids, the subs, and just being there, it means so much 🥰

Live now at twitch.tv/harbingerofbeth with my birthday celebration with friends!

When it's 1.5 hours till stream and you can't get your new elgato capture card to work 😅

Today, my friends!!!

I cannot begin to express the depth of my gratitude for the genuine love and care i am surrounded by, for the friends and loved ones I have. I am so blessed.

I ultimately want to be unapologetically queer, creative, and goth, in all aspects of my life. But I'm in situations that make it hard to be as open about those things IRL as I am online. But I'm working on letting the bits shine that I can and hoping the right people see them.