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joehhzeh.bsky.social
30s • they/she • boorloo, australia i'm a fantastic wreck ✨ currently into: crochet, one piece, booktube, ffvii
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i think i’m having a mid life crisis

the pre going out urge to stay home and play the sims is strong rn

every year i think to myself i don’t want to do this show anymore but every year i say yes yet again 🫠

in my new knitting journey i’ve learned that i can’t knit continental even though i crochet that way but i *can* and *prefer* to knit with one colour in each hand if i’m using 2 colours 🤷🏻‍♀️

jinxed myself telling my workmate i’d actually been sleeping lately 🥲

i was tearing my room apart for weeks trying to find a medication info booklet my neuro gave me last year. today i had a hunch for where it might be in a different room and it was there! and my checkup is tomorrow 🙌🏻

my wardrobe is such a nightmare at the moment. most of my clothes don’t fit anymore bc i’ve gained so much w8. i can’t bear to part with any of it cause i’d never be able to get any of those things again. but having them there is very bad for my brain. i need to lose w8 but feel so fucking stuck

tried to do a nice thing buying a $3 lighter for someone who was struggling with their card and clearly in a rush. they ended up chasing me down in my car and throwing a $5 note at me and running away before i could find change or give it back. now i feel worse for trying to be nice 🫠

i know that to get better in social situations you have to put yourself in more of them but i feel like the more social situations in the worse i get??

lost my mind a bit over my 9 day break and now i'm going back to work in another heatwave :')

picked the perfect time to want to commit to interchangeable knitting needles. right before boxing day sales 🙏🏻

treating myself to a nice breakfast after the ordeal of a pcr test

i wanna do so many things that require getting up early, like farmers markets, hikes, going to the beach before it gets insanely hot. but night shift and not sleeping till 3am doesn’t accommodate that 🥲

i got lost in two different shopping centres today and then lost my keys as i was trying to get into the house after 12 hours out today. i’m so fuckin tired

instead of going to bed at a reasonable hour before a big busy day tomorrow i retaught myself how to knit after 13+ years 🙃🙃🙃

animal crossing pocket camp taking over my life once more

started putting my clean clothes away after many weeks in a basket and that led to me taking all of my already put away clothes out and sorting through some to donate 🙃 now i have so many more clothes to put away

how am i still awake at 12.30am after getting up at 6am and being out until 8.30pm 😭

i can never understand people who buy tickets to shows only to talk through the entire thing

god i hope my brain and body come back online after tuesday. the crap gap is awful but so is the hot weather

i hope i’m not making a mistake giving up one of my workdays next year

i can't believe looking at the person's elbow actually helps you land a high-five??

everything happened so much today

wish this brain rot would leave me be but i can’t stop imagining situations that will never happen!!

had an energy spike this morning after 3 days of exhaustion but the fatigue is back baby

changing my mattress insert to a firmer one in the hopes it’ll help with my morning back pain 🥲

i wish i had more than one day to reset myself for the week bc the last thing i wanna do today is chores and cook dinner 😪

i hate having a crush when i know i’m never gonna do anything about it!!!!

finally feeling brave enough to tell people about my chronic illness after 7 years 😬

one thing i’m grateful for with these crazy few weeks before christmas is the venue got booked up so early that we don’t have to deal with any work christmas functions 🙌🏻

love to throw my back out in my sleep. nowhere is safe 🫠

why am i so resistant to going to bed/sleep even though i’m always so tired??

i’m so bad at asking for help but i was brave and asked someone to help cover some shows over december,, i don’t think i could’ve handled 4x 5 show weeks in a row, as much as i need the money

crochet has very much become a coping mechanism for me and i just want to do it every moment i’m awake to avoid thinking about literally anything else

ever since updating to ios18, my screen time widget just doesn’t work anymore. or it only will after a certain amount of time on screen, which i never spend enough of, bc it’s on the second page

what i would give for paid leave

had a stress dream about tonight’s show even though i know it’ll be fine 🫠

when you’re trying to take a progress photo of your temperature blanket but your dog has other plans

it was only after i’d finished the entire purple section that i saw a reel about doing a clean colour change, but i’m so glad i frogged it. it looks so much neater

had a really vivid dream that i was in svalbard. i know i could never handle it there, at least not for a long time, but man i’d love to go to like iceland or somewhere

i need to force myself to go to bed earlier so i can miss the inevitable Midnight Bad Brain

thinking about how i tried to give myself mondays off from doing anything relating to work and how quickly that failed 😪

i really wanted to make a lego brick tissue box cover but i don’t have enough yarn to do a full one, and i have no plans to buy this brand again 😪