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Was playing Xenoblade Chronicles 2 and ran into a little glitch šŸ¤£šŸ¤£

The table they had set up at dadā€™s celebration of life~ And some food I grabbed šŸ¤£ They had more, different kinds of sandwiches, but I have food problems so I didnā€™t grab them. My brotherā€™s non-dominant hand took over the page due to his good hand being in a cast šŸ¤£

Dadā€™s celebration of life thing is today, heading out in a few hours. Driving brother and his wife there šŸ˜‘ Anyways, this was my dad, I donā€™t think he actually played guitar, and he always found it weird that Iā€™m a furry, so Iā€™m gonna honor his memory by giving him a species for his own fursona šŸ¤£

In other news, is snowing a good bit :D A good bit for where I live, anyways šŸ¤£ No work today :3 Or at least, I work from home today. I CAN WORK FROM HOME WITH MY DESK JOB šŸ˜ Though my boss keeps saying she wants me in the office every day. šŸ¤£

Brother update: His hand is fractured from punching the wall. Itā€™s in a cast, mom took him to a doctor. We told him no tolerance for domestic violence in momā€™s house. We told him to tell his wife never hit him again or weā€™d call cops and lock her up. He thinks he deserves his fracture.

Family drama: brotherā€™s wife beat him while he was grieving over dad. At first I was upset for him. Now I hear he beat her back. Stepmom (momā€™s gf) took his wife to wifeā€™s momā€™s to separate them. Wifeā€™s mom brings her back, and brother yelled at mom ā€œSheā€™s MY wife and sheā€™s NOT leaving!ā€

Outfit not planned, but do I look like a Pokemon fan? šŸ¤£ Pikachu shirt, water Pokemon hoodie~

Happy Valentineā€™s Day! šŸ„³šŸ«šŸ’Œā¤ļø

Brotherā€™s kicking himself hard about not going to see dad. Heā€™s been free every single day since we heard about dadā€™s cancer. Heā€™s had every chance to get out there and see him. Sure the hospital and hospice place were about an hour drive from home, but thatā€™s nothing.

As expected, brother punched something when he got the message about dad šŸ«  Luckily it was his car and not anythingā€¦ more damageable. He may have broke his hand or finger(s). Heā€™s been jobless for 5 or 6 weeks now, and canā€™t afford to see a doctor. I told him to maybe get better coping skills šŸ‘€

My brother, who was much closer to our dad, didnā€™t visit him in hospice. Part of me thinks he wouldnā€™t be able to handle being faced with what was coming. But heā€™s beenā€¦ a real sorry bum lately, to be nice, and he wonā€™t get off his ass for anything, soā€¦

Dadā€™s gone. I visited him after work today, he was still here. Doctor popped in, said he didnā€™t expect dad to make it to the weekend. I told dad Iā€™d bring my brother if he stuck around. His wife, my other stepmom, messaged a couple hours later that dad had passed.

Sitting in hospice with dad for a little bit after work šŸ«  They moved him here today, I guess his fateā€™s sealed. Fought back tears the last hour at work. My nose is a SNOT factory šŸ¤£ Heā€™s knocked out on pain medicine, his breathing sounds all kinds of gravel-y. Talked into the void for a minute.

My brother and his wife are now at FIVE weeks with no jobs. I get that the job hunt can beā€¦ unsuccessful, but still, he lays around doing nothing most of the day, he could be applying at LOTS more places, he absolutely could have had a job by now. Nobody in this house can afford the two of them!

In other newsā€¦ I have 400 hours in Xenoblade Chronicles 2, and I still have one character the game refuses to give me DX I have every other character between B and S rank affection, but Zenobia is gonna be waaay behind because she just refuses to show up when I activate core crystals šŸ¤£

Doctors think dad may have a tumor in his gut that caused some bacteria that spiked his white blood cells, got him on antibiotics and are doing a gut scan~ They got him breathing better, and heā€™s sleeping good, so things are looking up so far :3

Dadā€™s in hospital Heā€™s been fighting lung cancer, doctors say itā€™s spreading, then he fainted while at home, and white blood cell count is crazy His wife says it doesnā€™t look good Iā€™m ok, never been that close with him, but I worry my brother wonā€™t handle it well if we lose him

Being in a more professional business-y environment, I canā€™t help but feel like I just donā€™t fit @_@ Even with my email writing skills, my ā€˜get it doneā€™ work ethic, my willingness to learn Even at 37 and a half years of age šŸ«  I still feel like a kid pretending to be a grown up~

I cannot stress this enoughā€”get physical copies of the books, music, art, and movies that matter most to you. Digital libraries can vanish, licenses expire, and whatā€™s available today might not be tomorrow. Preserve what you love before it slips out of the so-called golden age.

I hate having to make phone calls so much, and I had to do lots of them today because credit applications, and I have to contact their references to see how they stand, and some of the references donā€™t have emails or donā€™t respond to emails šŸ˜­ So I wrote a script to use each time I call a reference šŸ¤£

Almost got held hostage at my desk due to some audit paperwork NEEDING to get done, and I needed a list of emails and got sent on a wild goose chase of ā€œI dunno, maybe this other person can get that for youā€ by EVERYONE in my office šŸ¤£šŸ¤£ But it got done in a timely fashion because I am awesome šŸ˜ŽšŸ¤£

Now that I have a job where Iā€™m not breaking a nail every week, I think I might try to grow some claw shaped nails again >:3 Not long claws, just enough to reshape the ends into points~

Yuck Elon, and Yuck Twitter Gold šŸ¤® It costs around 12K a yearā€¦. What a horrible waste of money, Instead of doing that, we are giving $1000 to a different charity each month this year. Starting with Doctors Without Borders!

The materia in Final Fantasy 7 (original) to this day is sooo pretty. If I lived in that world, Iā€™d collect materia just to have a hoard of pretty shiny colorful orbs~ ā€¦ More and more, I really think I need a dragon fursona šŸ¤£šŸ¤£

New member of one of my bear families :D Meet Kain (grey/blue bear), named after a Final Fantasy 4 character The other two Iā€™ve had for a couple years I think, theyā€™re also named after FF4 characters XD Cecil (brown bear) and Rosa (pale peachy pink bear). I need bears for the entire FF4 cast!

So, itā€™s actually a coup. This whole thing. Itā€™s a coup. We need to start treating it as such.

My boss at my new job brings her dog into the office sometimes :D PUPPY šŸ˜ Big puppy :3 Big, black german shepherd~ BIIIIG PUPPYYYY šŸ˜šŸ˜ And he demands pets šŸ„¹ā¤ļø Stepmom might bring Lily, our weenie dog, to work sometime~ Office dogs šŸ˜ ALL offices need puppies >:3

@cnn.com calling Trumpā€™s plan to move 1M+ Palestinians ā€˜remarkableā€™ feels like the w worst kind of boot-licking. Forced displacement isnā€™t diplomacyā€”itā€™s reckless and unethical. Media should challenge dangerous ideas, not normalize them with soft language. #Accountability #DoBetter

Odd dream~ (1/2)Was walking outside, it was autumn. But instead of leaves on the ground, the ground was covered in likeā€¦ wood chips, but they were fluffy and pale pastel colors. They felt like fluffy feathery snow, but not cold.