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🩡 Maria 🩡 She/Her 🩡 20 🩡 Trying to lose recovery weight :’) 5’0” BMI 21 ednos CW: 111.8 lb HW: 164 lb LW: 91 lb GW: 80 lb
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the country is crumbling to dust as we speak and I have no coping mechanisms that dont involve food (or the lack thereof) other than getting drunk/high πŸ₯²

Ideally if I don’t start binging again this should be manageable for me for the next few months but u know…who knows when the next binge will hit :’) It’s set for 757 on weekdays and 1257 on weekends which would avg me at around 900 per day

Ur telling me Shane fucking Dawson can lock in but I can’t….this is so humiliating πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”

I might be finally getting a car soon yayyyy!! It’ll cost me p much all the money I have booooo πŸ‘Ž

β€œmetab day” i whisper to myself as i watch myself eat 3 million calories

πŸ€ Weigh ins πŸ€

πŸ€ Cal tracker πŸ€

πŸ€ March Threads πŸ€

Btw #edsky how tf do I make my own cal tracker is it hard 😭

Ermmm so February was a flop but March is gonna be my month so I’m gonna go ahead and set up a thread for March and pretend Feb never happened πŸ€·β€β™€οΈ

How I feel trying to stay under 1000 cal after spending the past month impulsively stuffing my face with processed food at every given opportunity

Hiii I’m back I’ve been miserable and locked in a b/r cycle so I’ve been hiding away in shame lol

Can restriction cause joint pain over time bc I stg I think I might have arthritis or something in my knee. For the past few years my knee joint hurts so bad esp during the winter & I have to wear a knee brace if I’m doing a lot of walking

I think the reason why my binge cycle started after Tromp was inaugurated was 1. Stress but also the reality that food may be less accessible soon & that scarcity mindset always makes me binge πŸ™ƒ if I’m starving I want it to be on my own terms

Idk if I should start counting cals again yet or not. I’m aiming to do a 48 hour liquid fast/protein shake mono and then maybe I’ll start counting again idk

So humbling how I’ve had an Ed for almost 8 years & never got below bmi 17 lol just never ending cycles of binging and restricting and purging and β€œrecovering” over and over again and at the end of it all I’m still chubby. Love that πŸ₯°πŸ₯°

They finally had my sparkling water in stock thank u god…πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸ˜™πŸ˜…πŸ˜šπŸ€ͺπŸ˜‡πŸ₯°πŸ₯ΈπŸ€©πŸ˜πŸ˜β˜ΊοΈπŸ˜„πŸ˜’πŸ˜πŸ₯³πŸ˜ŒπŸ€¨πŸ€ͺβ˜ΊοΈπŸ€“β˜ΊοΈπŸ˜πŸ˜„πŸ˜πŸ˜’πŸ˜–πŸ˜«πŸ˜©πŸ€—πŸ€­

I want to binge so bad AAEJDJJFKVK

I tried cleaning out my photos today and had to go thru thousands of bcs from my lw. It was so triggering 😭

Remember, calories don’t count during Super Bowl weekend or during a steady and inevitable descent into madness so

Hey so this was actually a LIE so I’m taking a break from logging until I can stop 😭