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neurotox.bsky.social
She/Her (Age over 21) Anti Censorship Loves Villains/Psychopaths Loves Stingrays (animal) Loves Zombies Rabid Horror Fan Thunder Storms are my Heaven Therian Member of Kaerwyn RP Scribbles sometimes
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So stressed about the next few days. Shifting furniture tomorrow, then cleaning on thursday. Still stuff other people need to sort out of the way. At least the man and I got the outside done on time. Then Rolf surgery on Friday. Am just a big bag of random rage outbursts and sadness.

Fucking christ, Etsy. If I search for a specific item, just fucking tell me there are *none* STOP SHOWING ME RESULTS THAT ARE NOT WHAT I FUCKING WANT. 22mm DOES NOT MEAN 33mm. FUCK YOU. I'm so frustrated atm, sorry. Google is just as fucking bad. I dunno how to make it any MORE SPECIFIC.

owning a small business in 2025…

Vaulted ceilings are the biggest waste of space in a house. They exist purely as some sort of vanity 'status' imo. Lived my whole life in houses with normal height ceilings, never once felt as trapped and closed in as I do in this one.

Finally got around to labeling and sorting my herb jars. Found 1 bag the store forgot to label, so I have no idea wtf it is. Arrgh. Hope they can tell me next time I go back. It looks like mebbe wood chips, or a root. I need to be sure tho.

Our 'love language': Game quotes, movie quotes, cat/dog sounds and growling noises. Pretty much covers 70% of all conversations between me and the man.

Clive, Gav and Jill need more throuple art.

House repair costs for just the back wall gonna be in the 40,000s. Not covered by insurance since it didn't damage the house itself when it came down. Really, I just wanna bail. But, it looks like nobody in this house is goin anywhere anytime soon. I need a rich bf. Or a rich gf/bf for my man.

Tryin to work on Ryn. Getting bogged down and demotivated with lil details I'd forgotten were important. Mostly problems with her rifle. I've never been good with that 'suspension of disbelief' ballance as easily as others. Mebbe I'm just having a bad day. Still. I feel like my creativity is dead.

Ever get up, finish the morning routine and think "Today feels like a good day to go back to bed."?

Nature tryin to tell me somethin..

Rolf's radiologist reports came back normal! Very good news. Prob do an ultrasound in the future, but atm everything is good. So relieved my Best Dog is doing well, aside from his arthritis. Now, just gotta focus on the surgery.

Also had a great night with @queencokefrancis.bsky.social playin some ffxvi. It's been too long since I got to hang out with her sexy awesomeness. Go check out her podcasts. Talented Queen. 🖤

My issues seem to be getting better with the acid reduction fix. Just in time for me to spiral into eating even less due to finances and lack of 'cooking' motivation, combined with feeling too fat again. So tired of my own bullshit.

Rolf's bloodwork is all great. Excellent news for an 11 yr old doggo. So, surgery going ahead as planned on the 18th.

Here's an old pic of Captain Ryn, made in the suuuuuuper old wow model viewer.

Rolf has a possible tumor around his liver. Not panicking yet. The xrays are being sent to radiologist for indepth confirmation. Also waiting for Rolf's bloodwork to come back. So, we'll see. He has no symptoms of anything 'abnormal' so far.

I support neighborhood sharing etc. However. My neighborhood enjoys going to great lengths to report us to the city because our yard doesn't look 'pretty enough' in attempts to sue and fine us, multiple times over the years. So, fuck this neighborhood and it's wannabe HOA bullshit.

So much happening this month. Rolf's surgery, wall repairs, house repairs. So much cleaning and organizing to do before the 18th. I'm overwhelmed already, my crazy brain is running circles. Haven't even started yet. 🫤

I miss my bisexual elf pirate. She's still my fav rp character, originally made for WOW 'back in the day'. Soooo many good discord rps in the past. Have the urge to work on her again, maaaaybe make her my return to #Kaerwyn while I figure out some other stuff from my needed break time. Dunno yet.

Endoscopy done. They found some bad acid irritation, so there's a spark of possibility that my problems are due to excessive acid (no gall bladder to hold it back) and bile. Something that can be simply managed. This is the very last thing to try, nowhere left to look. So, we'll see.

My mind urges to create stuff, but the body can never get started. I dunno wtf is wrong with me. 🙁

Well. Apparently all my organs are super healthy. Except for some slight spine stuff that isn't major atm, but explains my lower back pain for decades. Some disc space issues. I am both surprised and happy that my internal body is supposedly great. But.. FUCK. Still no answers for my suffering.

Haircut, new fav hat and my glasses. Enjoy I guess.

'Twisters' was pretty fun movie. But, cause of my broken brain, I spent the whole movie waiting for a tie-in to 'Twister' after the 'teaser' mention of dorothy at the very beginning. There wasn't one. Ruined the entire thing for me. Cause crazy brain wouldn't let it go.

Well. Results from CT are 'normal'. So, got a followup on Monday. I don't even know wtf to do now. I just feel tired. Guess we'll just see what the doc says.

Rolf's tests and surgery are finally scheduled for early April. 3 mass removals. Now it's just waiting.

Hope everyone's Patrick's day was fun (if you celebrate it). Wishing y'all the best luck for whatever you want to do. 🖤🍀