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Journal #86 Still fooling with moving. Will give in-depth update soon. Still surviving.

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Journal #85 Still moving. Updates to follow. Still surviving.

Journal #84 Posting to keep my streak going! Packing for the move and no time to chat. I survived another day!

Journal #83 I donā€™t really know how Iā€™m feeling today. Work is really hectic. Itā€™s the most brain power I have ever used at my job. Like I just feel frazzled. I just want to eat my feelings. I have the move coming up too. I feel so burned out and Iā€™ve only been back to work since the beginning ofā€¦

Journal #82 Iā€™m feeling low today. My beard and body hair is growing in and I havenā€™t been able to fit the time in to deal with it. Itā€™s 10:09 pm and I just finally sat down for the evening. And Iā€™ll be up early ish as I have to work and the weather is terrible and Iā€™ll have to deal with that inā€¦

Iā€™ll get there somedayā€¦

Journal #81 Well itā€™s been a hectic day. You ever work a job with two bosses? It was like tug of war for my attention the whole day. On the bright side, the day flew, but it was very mesmerizing. Itā€™s getting closer to moving day. Iā€™m feeling nervous and excited. But at the same point itā€™s goingā€¦

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Journal #80 So letā€™s talk about other things that can cause me to feel dysphoric. Weā€™ve already established I hate my body hair. I hate feeling it and seeing it grow in. I also really hate the male pattern fat distribution. I hate beards. I hate male clothing options. I hate being treated like aā€¦

Journal #79 Thinking about my brotherā€™s acknowledgement of my identity and telling me I can be whomever I want to be was very supportive, but thereā€™s a few weird thoughts Iā€™ve had with it. Almost everyone else I would want to view me as a woman. Iā€™d want the she/her/they/them pronouns. But I haveā€¦

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Trickle down economics. This is exactly how it works.

Journal #78 I donā€™t have long to post. My life is very hectic right now because of the move weā€™re planning and various other appointments. I will be putting together furniture for the time being. I just want to give one update. My brother who has known along with my sister in law about myā€¦

Journal #77 Iā€™m tired. Itā€™s been a long week. Work was a complete drag because of how terrible of a file Iā€™m working on with my boss. I wonā€™t get into all the specifics, but basically we spent like 6 hours debating a bunch of stuff until we came to an agreement. I enjoyed peer support yesterdayā€¦

Journal #76 I donā€™t have long to post. Peer support days are very busy for me. I went to the group dressed as Michelle. I wore my outfit (itā€™s all I have itā€™s the one outfit) and my cheap wig I told everyone to call me Michelle. I think I was smiling the whole time I was there. I didnā€™t speak muchā€¦

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Journal #75 So peer support is coming again tomorrow. Iā€™m excited but nervous. I really want to try to talk more, as well as maybe make a friend or two. But at the same time, Iā€™m trying to get the courage to dress how I want to dress. And itā€™s terrifying to do that outside of my home. Itā€™s just soā€¦

Journal #74 Iā€™m feeling exhausted. Whatā€™s new? Haha! Another peer support is coming up on Thursday. I really need to get there and Iā€™ll likely be there. However, whether or not I can be more authentic and present how I want is yet to be determined. Itā€™s also not much longer and the move to theā€¦

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Good morning Blue sky! Bring on the coffee!

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Journal #73 Another Monday! It really felt like it too. So my life is just being super busy right now. We have our apartment and weā€™re starting to buy things weā€™re missing and getting things packed to move. The move in date will be March 1st. Thereā€™s just so much to do and so much on the go rightā€¦

Journal #72 Itā€™s been another busy day. Why are weekends so short? And then the long week takes forever to get through? Anyway. Last night was pretty nice. I got to dress up and be myself for like 4 hours. Although, I was confined to my room. Me and my wife binge watched Netflix and I just woreā€¦

Journal #71 Itā€™s been a very busy day. So many chores. Cooking 3 meals, cleaning up dishes from the meals, doing all the laundry for everyone and packing it all away. Iā€™ve cleared snow from the snow storm, as well as playing with my kids and making sure they ate well and had their bath. Now to sitā€¦

Journal #70 For anyone who randomly stumble upon my blog. I know they can vary in both length and quality. The main goal of putting it out there is so my therapist can easily read it and be caught up so we can avoid getting brought up to speed between appointments. It also prevents me fromā€¦

Journal #69 So itā€™s been an eventful and busy day! The first bit of news is that it looks like weā€™ve found an apartment. Thereā€™s a fairly big apartment in an affordable range that weā€™re going to be offered. Itā€™s also like a 5 min walk from my work in the event my wife needed the car or anythingā€¦

Journal #68 So I confided so much into my sister in law today. As I predicted, she is the most accepting person in my whole family. Unlike my brother too, she donā€™t try to pawn me off or say anything like ā€œI donā€™t know what to tell you.ā€ What I get from her is: ā€œwhat can I do to support you?ā€ Sheā€¦

I am alone. As much as I want to believe I have others in my corner, I donā€™t. I have zero support. My struggles are mine and mine alone. No one gives a shit.

Journal #67 Iā€™m just not okay. I just lost my temper and went for a long drive. Thereā€™s a lot that pretty much set it off, but the final straw was bathing my kids and my wife just fucked off on me. They were done and I was waiting for her to come back to get one. But she never did. I donā€™t knowā€¦

Journal #66 The apartment hunting took a step forward today I think. We viewed a really good place, that is in a price range we could manage, and itā€™s close to my work if I never had the car for any reason. Itā€™s also a really decent size and would make for a great home. Itā€™s a matter on if weā€™reā€¦

Journal #65 The weekend flew by. Itā€™s been full of chores. Iā€™ve done nothing to really boost my mood in terms of a hobby or anything. My kids today were rather difficult. I guess the terrible 2s are coming a bit early. Theyā€™re still great most of the time, but I think I have a theory that myā€¦

I believe!

Journal #64 Just been a long day. I went to bed super early last night. My mom had brought me a music box I accidentally bought years ago. It was meant to be a from son to mother thing for Motherā€™s Day, but I got one that was a from dad to daughter. It played ā€œyou are my sunshine.ā€œ I broke. Likeā€¦

Journal #63 So I donā€™t have my car at work. I guess I should make a post. Itā€™s been a very anxious week. I keep having issues with my direct boss. Itā€™s like you can do no right. I had a file that wasnā€™t completed for example, and my other boss told me to draft the statements for it, but he got madā€¦

Journal #62 I had a whole post planned but today was utterly exhausting between everything. I donā€™t think I stopped for 5 minutes. I had a Temu order arrive. Other than lacking bras, I have all the clothes for a few female outfits. I even got a wig now too. For a run down on what I got recently.ā€¦

This. All of this. ā¤ļøšŸ«¶šŸ»šŸŽ® (I know itā€™s long, but itā€™s worth the read.)