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ENvtuber|POC| chaotic neutral bat themed vtuber| artist| auDHD| POTS| https://www.twitch.tv/nocturnalren https://www.tiktok.com/@nocturnalrenttv?_t=8qhpJu06lLz&_r=1
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Sometimes I need to realize, the point of toxic people and people with toxic personality disorders is their goal is to provoking you into a response. When you respond they claim you’re abusing them. I need to be more mindful and not take the bait even though they know exactly what makes you tick.

*sigh* rant about stupid people over. How is everyone’s morning going? I’m doing lovely just needed to blow off some steam lol (I do it semi constructively tho 😙)

It’s wild how much someone will obsess over the idea of you yet claim to be over it. Like I hadn’t thought about this person in months until someone used my trauma against me and reminded me of them (nearly causing me to have a panic attack on a call.) Yet they have me in their mouth constantly 🤨

One thing I don’t particularly like about Bluesky rn compared to…the other app, is being unable to schedule posts and save drafts. But compared to that toxic mess it’s not as important… Just gotta post my thoughts as I think them. Which as someone with ADHD is dangerous.

The comparison is a little wild. Online best friend: met on a game ✅ Multiple people I met via CC recently ❌ Five people I met recently via Overwatch one being someone we convinced to be a CC ✅ Why are a lot of people you meet in the industry toxic…that’s like a genuine question…

Someone I’ve known for a few months: *makes a baseless accusation or claim about me* Me: *laughing my ass off because people on the internet only know about me what I choose to tell them and they are wrong as hell 💀*

Real friendship is spending hours laughing, giggling, and trolling each other in your modded Minecraft server. It’s building bases together and adopting “ghouls” because they were cute. It’s living in a frog village with your friends because the way they play together in a band is too adorable 🥰

And nobody in all of Oz No wizard that there is or was Is ever gonna bring me down 💜🦇

Now that I’ve put both people who wanted to try my ass in the place they deserve. I’m done. They can subtweet at a brick wall for all I care. Spending all your time and energy on the internet is not healthy. I don’t know these people they don’t know me. Time to live my life in peace 💜🦇

Only narcissists and people who feel satisfaction in other people’s pain get a good feeling at the misfortune of others, even tho you may have been right about something doesn’t mean you should feel a sense of satisfaction. Check yourself buddy. This ain’t a subtweet it’s directed right at you 😘

I think people don’t realize when you start making money on a platform (I.e. Twitch, YouTube, etc.) it becomes like a business. Any conversations about that “business” should be kept mostly professional.

Update on this piece 💜 #art #artist #envtuber #vtuber #drawing #painting #digitalart

I understand the purpose of watermarks…but the fact they are even needed just shows how much people don’t respect artists. Don’t steal artwork and we wouldn’t need them. Respect artists wishes and we wouldn’t need them. I legit never used one until now because I assumed people wouldn’t be shitty

Redrawing something I did back in 2020 (can’t believe that was 5 years ago) I remember when I thought this was the best drawing I’ve ever done…interesting how much you can improve Peep the new watermark 😉 #vtuber #envtuber #artist #artwork #2020vs2025

One of the only “good” thing to come from years of cptsd and trauma is my ability to detach from people quickly if needed. Sometimes my body can sense danger before I do so throwing hurtful words at me hoping one sticks doesn’t effect me when I detached months ago 🤷‍♀️

I have a tendency to ignore red flags, and not because I don’t see them trust me I do, but I’m too blinded by optimism, and the ability to see past them and look at the potential for good someone has. Listening to my gut from now on because people do eventually show who they really are :P

Good morning ppl of Bluesky! How we doing on this fine Tuesday morning? I feel so much lighter and happier 💜🦇

On a lighter note! I joined my friends modded Minecraft world and found a VILLAGE FULL OF FROG PEOPLE! My day legit was made and I’m so fucking happy over some silly frogs 🥹

I’ve finally had a situation that really embodies the term “TLDR” A lot of people do a lot of yapping and not a lot of listening. Taking their feelings as gospel and not having communication like any relationship has. Asking questions yet not really wanting the answers to them then name calling 🤨

I think the difference between an online friendship being real and not based off some weird standard and hidden motives is whether it’s a content creation based friendship or not. Not all are like this, but the level of toxicness in CC is wild. Never seen anything like in any other space.

Finally decided to delete that god forsaken app off my phone can’t be asked to be subtweeted constantly and have people I have blocked see my shit done with the petty drama I have a life to live 💀

This is what I have so far on the vtuber model I’m designing for myself. Obviously it’s not nearly done but I’m proud of the progress I’ve made. Do I think I’ll rig it? Not sure yet but it’s good to have a design for the future so that I know what I want. #vtuber #envtuber #bskvtuber

Not being able to get closure for something that truly hurt you is unfortunate and sometimes you never will get closure for things. One thing I’ve done in the past is write a letter of all the things I would say to that person and then burn it. I say my peace and let the embers fly into the air.

I’m cooking up something 👀 #vtuber #bskvtuber #envtuber

If you see this post your flags! #vtuber #envtuber #lgbtq #bisexual #demiromantic

Peep the new video! youtu.be/qyKQHYgSRYs?... #youtube #contentwarning #vtuber #envtuber #blueskyvtuber

I did end up trying them and they aren’t half bad tbh. I was….medicated so that might have been why I liked them 🥲

Pouring out a cold one for TikTok…we will miss you. Rip. #tiktok

I feel like people don’t realize that if you are implying you are better than someone else for one reason or another you are aligning yourself with the belief systems of segregation. And we don’t need that kind of thought processes in 2025.

No. No I do not. #meme #chickenbrain #errorloading #staticnoise

So…has anyone tried the new Taco Bell chicken nuggets and are they good I wanna try them #tacobell

Trying to add some positivity to the clock app with a Jeff the land shark mental health check in ❤️ #tiktok #jeffthelandshark #marvelrivals www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8FNqphT/

Consent is a very important aspect of life. But you know what’s really important? Not looking like a racist douchebag for not asking your POC partner/situationship if they consent to be called a racially degrading term during spicy time…. Crazy you’d think a “dom” would understand that.

Merry Christmas all! Going to be spending time with family and friends! You are loved I hope you know that!

You. Will. Be. Popular. You’re gonna be popular. Me when people who have me blocked still comment on things they shouldn’t be able to see. Hope it wasn’t too time consuming making that alt account 😘

Same thing goes when you have a different idea of what happened than someone else. You can say that’s not how I remember things happening. But it becomes abusive and manipulative when you try and say “that never happen” or “you’re lying.” Two things can be true at the same time without someone lying

I feel like people don’t quite understand what all constitutes as abuse. Neglect is abuse. If you grew up in a house with neglectful parents, parents who didn’t nurture you and passed you onto others since they didn’t have time for you. That’s an abusive parental dynamic. I would know. 😭

Why whole thing is you can believe what you want but when you try and deny something happened that’s when I have a problem. And that’s when as a survivor I get angry and want to speak up because at that point your not just denying my story your denying the story of survivors everywhere.

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I’ve picked up a new hobby! Making sourdough bread. That includes making my own starter from scratch and boy is she showing off. Only on day 3 and she’s already ready to be used to bake by I’m still gonna wait the full 7 days. I need to give her a name. She’s making mom proud 🥹

It’s so sad when people become clones of streamers they appreciate, taking things and repurposing it is okay but when you watch their stream and notice the same mannerisms but they’ve been streaming longer you start to see the other person as a baby version of who their idol is.