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Thoughts: been a hot minute. Almost a year later, finally starting therapy. Cautiously optimistic; I at least feel like they know what they're doing during the introduction session. College has been tough, though. And sleep has been impossible. Song: www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y6Kz...

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Thoughts: having a partner that's like a pet that can take care of itself and consent to sex sounds like a wonderful relationship. Song: www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gf7y...

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Thoughts: Day 2 of new prescription. Feel.. off.. I feel like I'm trying to stress about things I didn't realize I was stressed about before. I need a week.. or a year.. or to start working immediately.. or to feel helpless forever. I don't know. Song: www.youtube.com/watch?v=bI2N...

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Thoughts: By cutting off rumination I stopped being so depressed.. I was right; I DON'T exist outside of my problems. Lost all emotion; every bit of motivation came from pressuring myself about whatever problem held my attention... not sure what to do next. Song: www.youtube.com/watch?v=ekXs...

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Thoughts: decided that I'll shore up my follows by using my feeds to keep up with most artists; make the "following" feed a bit more limited. Been meaning to do that to cut back on the NSFW stuff in the feed. Song: www.youtube.com/watch?v=9FHC...

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Thoughts: realized I had that thought about meds several times a day.. huh.. nothing else going through my mind. Worried I may just not exist as a human being outside of my depression. Song: www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ZTd...

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Thoughts: too impaired to live my life, too capable to have a problem to solve. Such an idiotic life I live. Need to get back on depression medication.. hear they've come a long way since the stuff I was on before. Song: www.youtube.com/watch?v=rjRF...

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Thoughts: I feel... overwhelmed, stressed, stuck, vulnerable.. trying to crack at what is stopping me from my life, but... I need to get on depression medication again. I hear it's come a long way since my old prescription. Song: A favorite, may have posted before. www.youtube.com/watch?v=1uQS...

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Thoughts: verdict from assessment; it's not ADHD, I scored high on every cognitive test there was, so the reason I can't focus and do things is basically just depression/emotions. Guess that tracks with the last discovery. Still need a way to work on it... Song: www.youtube.com/watch?v=JUSu...

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Thoughts: I.. think I finally identified the problem I have.. I don't trust myself, to the point where I dissociate to shut down thoughts, ideas, and creativity.. makes doing things like drawing hard.. now what to even do about this. Song: www.youtube.com/watch?v=epBb...

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Thoughts: don't feel up to leaving my room today. Maybe I should try to look up dissociation and find something to try.. that's the current guess about what else is going on with me; doing that to shut down ADHD tendencies. Song: www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnCG...

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Thoughts: no, after a day of my mind stuck on it.. something more is going on than ADHD.. but I don't know what. Keep struggling. Song: www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Pvn...

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Thoughts: I started drawing fine, but when I needed to experiment and do something new my mind blanked, my body got tense, and I could barely do anything.. couple hours later I felt hyper as I began to relax.. still think it's ADHD, still don't know what to do. Song: www.youtube.com/watch?v=kDGe...

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Thoughts: the most insidious thing I've learned about my ADHD is how it makes itself feel normal. I fail to keep on a task, and feel like I chose to fail or walk away. I put constant effort in, and feel like I did nothing because I accomplished nothing. Song: www.youtube.com/watch?v=isZb...

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Thoughts: I'm starting to actually understand my emotions, they're becoming less something that just happens to me. Problem is, they're all depression. Bad habit of just accepting it as normal. Not sure this helps me. Gotta keep struggling, I guess. song: www.youtube.com/watch?v=f6Si...

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Thoughts: Yeah.. yeah. I think my issues were always ADHD and maladaptive ways of dealing with it; I just got.. distracted from figuring it out last time I tried. I think I'm getting close. Again. We'll see. Song: www.youtube.com/watch?v=PVMH...

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Thoughts: was planning on cleaning up my account of depressive rants, but didn't see anything overtly bad. Huh. Well, keep struggling; trying to learn about ADHD again.. got distracted last time and kept bouncing around as things didn't help. Song: Fun stuff. www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ws-...

submitted 106 days ago • 0 comments

Thoughts: noticing an ADHD trend; I CAN focus on a task.. but I feel bad because it makes me feel stressed and increasingly horrible. I forced through the ADHD into depression instead.. what do I do about this? Song: haven't seen the latest episode yet.. www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tgj3...

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