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I was an author And a poet But maybe not so much anymore Dreams fade
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So I've been binge watching Lost and like Kate is so dumb. Like why leave the island when you have so many charges against you and the possibility of jail time??? 🙃

Oh vey I've been quiet on here I don't mean to be Im just trying to find a job and motivate myself to do housework I'm in a reading and writing slump but ehhh.

This helps out a lot actually

Sunday 🌸 Feelings🌟 Take what you need. 🌸🌟🦋🫂 #KindnessMatters #BlueCrew #BlueSky #StayStrong #Hope #writingsforgood💜

#UnchainedSymphonies (betwixt) #WritingPrompts

My last two novellas have been read this month! Yay! I would appreciate some sales! #WritingCommunity. #readingcommunity.

I think May will be the first month I will have no sales whatsoever 🙃 But I'm okay with that. Win some, lose some. And I really haven't really been talking or marketing my book lately. So I can understand. I just get tired sometimes and need a break.

I started taking a new medication last month. I just now remembered that it can cause depression. I googled more symptoms. It can cause severe symptoms such suicide thoughts in some cases. I know my triggers and I have been racking my brain as to what could have set me off. 1/

I lost myself for a little while It was a struggle to find my way back But I think I found my path again

It's okay

My depression is bad Im trying to do things I love Like reading I know I've been in a reading slump but I managed to read and finished a book today. So that's a good start. Small steps.

Death has been calling My name And I've been tempted To answer Maybe my time has come To say goodbye And move onto the next adventure Because life certainly has me Depressed and lonely And the world could lose one more talentless soul

Maybe i can't write But I dream That I can That I write Beauty and breathless prose And stories But the words just don't flow My books don't sell And I don't get interactions Am I just a shadow Just screaming Into the void Invisible to all This life is teaching me I'm nothing special

I'm so tired of putting job apps in And not getting any call backs Ughhhh

I wanna write but I'm struggling so bad right now It really sucks

Oh yay a Juliet centered episode on Lost I hate how they entrapped her to the island, the bastards

Still watching Lost and I still don't care for Kate Ugh especially the episodes about her

Depression is a bitch And I think I'm having an episode 😞

On a Lost binge and finally get to the season where Juliet is introduced...I love Juliet.

🔪new sticker🔪 yeah i have stability

I feel like I was an arsonist in a past life. Because after having a mental breakdown, I always have this desire to burn shit. Like I love fire. Yes. Let's destroy some shit by burning it. Is this normal for a Pisces?♓️ Probably not but I am an Aries rising lol

What is the point of temp agencies if they can't get you in the door of a job? I just...wtf

I feel like with everything going on in the world we really shouldn't have to be paying our bills But what do I know? 🤷🏻‍♀️ I really don't want to pay lot rent, that's all. Or my car payment. Or my mortgage. Blah.

I wrote 2,700 words on a new WIP ...what about my other WIPs? Eh, fuck them for now I guess? Why am I like this? At this rate, I'm not going to complete anything lol

That was some storm last night The thunder was crazy My cats were hiding, poor babies

Eh let's play