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I'm a materials engineer for a fusion energy startup. I do R&D of superconducting magnets for a bunch of different applications. I love to cycle and hike whenever I get the chance. Also, I'm a trans woman.

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I pretty much immediately jumped back to lab work today after the meeting with my boss so didn't really take the time to absorb this but now I have it just feels amazing, I've taken another huge step to just being myself completely, and damn does it feel good!

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So, that kind of went perfectly

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I've been telling myself I'm ready for this for over a week now, I've been going over in my head exactly what I want to say and I've done everything I can to remove excuses not to say it but now it's just a matter of waiting until tomorrow morning and my brain is stuck in overdrive

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Ok, sent a message to my boss telling him I'd like to discuss "Something personal" in our meeting tomorrow morning, everything is lined up and all I need to do is just say it.

submitted 5 days ago • 0 comments

May have just had an extreamly stereotypical clueless trans gal moment. Been growing my hair out for nearly a year after buzzing it for about a decade and only just realised this week that I should probably start using conditioner on it 😅

submitted 7 days ago • 0 comments

This might be a lot earlier than I had originally planned, but the last couple of days I've started thinking it might be time to start telling a few people at work, the way things are going I'll have to say something pretty soon, and part of me now kinda just wants to do it and be done with it

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Kind of annoyed at myself, I had hoped I'd be able to talk to my friend about being trans this weekend but just in the moment it didn't feel right and I just couldn't find the words. Not the end of the world though, I'm just gonna chalk this up as not the right moment, there'll be other chances

submitted 18 days ago • 0 comments

I kind of knew that when I started coming out would be because keeping this secret felt worse than the fear of coming out and having time to actually just think about it, keeping it a secret from most people is just starting to feel suffocating. I won't be doing it all at once, but it is time

submitted 26 days ago • 0 comments

Oh hey, a LinkedIn connection request from the recruiter who ignored me three times when I asked for an update on an application. I don't like to think of myself as petty, but I'm gonna enjoy ignoring this one, hehehe!

submitted 27 days ago • 0 comments

After actually taking some proper time to reflect, I think I've kind of realised why I've been so stressed lately. I feel kind of trapped in my transition right now. I'm completely terrified to move forward, but I also know I can't just stop here, and i don't really know where to go now

submitted 28 days ago • 0 comments

So it turns out today was my annual traditional day of spending a bit too much time outside and expecting the sun wasn't strong enough yet to cause burning and now having a slightly red face as a consequence. I love having the complexion of a Scottish princess

submitted 30 days ago • 0 comments

Good solid walk over the fells with a cozy Cafe stop in the middle and a quick pub visit at the end, perfect way to decompress from it all and think about what it is I actually want to do moving forward

submitted 32 days ago • 0 comments

Always forget how amazing the lakes are!

submitted 32 days ago • 0 comments

Think I've actually put some good stuff in the pipeline. Catching up with another friend in two weeks and planning to come out to him. Mum and I have agreed we will talk soon and I've found a queer meetup nearby to go to. Getting where I want to be slowly but surely!

submitted 32 days ago • 0 comments

Yeah so my anxiety is still my worst enemy. Example, an old friend who I came out to last month to misses a single text and instead of the completely reasonable response of "oh people miss messages sometimes, it happens" my mind decides to panic spiral that he's ended the friendship, it's exhausting

submitted 33 days ago • 0 comments

Been too long since I've had a good train rant, what the actual hell is the point of letting people reserve seats if you just turn the reservations off for no obvious reason leaving you in a state of limbo over if you're gonna be kicked out every station!

submitted 33 days ago • 0 comments

Really what's been keeping me going recently is that thought that I'm getting closer to the day when I drop the mask and it stays off forever. The day I can look at myself and just say I'm Tamsin and I never have to be someone else again

submitted 33 days ago • 0 comments

And honestly, even though I know I need to take a bit of a rest, I'm really happy with how far I've come in the last 9 months. When I started hormones I really wasn't sure I'd be able to do this, but seeing this, where I started and where I am now, I know I made the right choice.

submitted 34 days ago • 0 comments

So yeah, it's time for a holiday, a week in the lake district will be a good decompress from everything. This mental fatigue will take more than just a week off to get over, but even a small rest is something and it'll help me reset to a more sustainable pace.

submitted 34 days ago • 0 comments

Realised today I've been so focused on constantly moving forward that I haven't noticed the very obvious signs of burning out. New job, moving city and really starting to transition all added up. Need to remember the advice I used to give my triathlon club, sometimes the best session is a day off

submitted 34 days ago • 1 comment

Mild chaos in the background and a mirror in dire need of a wipe down, but this was just pure euphoria

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Kinda thinking I need to start using a gopro when I go riding, nearly got run off the road twice today in a 60km ride including one guy who decided driving straight at a cyclist was a good idea and honestly I'm kinda sick of not being able to report that kind of thing

submitted 47 days ago • 0 comments

Honestly the wildest realisation I've had the last few months is that all of these things that bother me aren't locked in forever but are actually things I can control or change through time and effort and it's really been awesome to properly start doing it all!

submitted 57 days ago • 0 comments

Keeping with the theme of me suddenly deciding to do everything at once, I'm seeing a vocal coach this evening!

submitted 58 days ago • 0 comments

Ah, the millennial experience of “every time you get some measure of financial and career stability, the world decides to do something extraordinarily stupid again”

submitted 60 days ago • 210 comments

After probably the most emotionally charged weekend I've had in a long time, I decided to just bring Tamsin out fully, it's been hard work but this reminds me what I'm doing it for

submitted 59 days ago • 0 comments

Ok and sudden reversal of my mood due to a text from my Mum apologizing for her outburst yesterday, saying she was in the wrong and that she's just scared which I honestly completely get because I'm scared too. I think we might actually be ok here

submitted 59 days ago • 0 comments

Love traveling three hours to a random medical centre for a blood test because my GP is apparently incapable of doing a hormone level check

submitted 60 days ago • 0 comments

Despite a few amazing days of just feeling like I was making real authentic progress to just being me, I get home, drop the mask and just break down. I know I'm making progress but I just can't help feeling like shit about it all sometimes, why do I have to work this hard just to be myself?

submitted 60 days ago • 0 comments

I'm honestly doing the best I can to take a gentle approach to discussing my gender identity with my mum but every time I even touch it she acts like it'll be a world ending change that I haven't thought through and basically says she'll only support me if I see a conversion therapist

submitted 61 days ago • 0 comments

I'm not entirely sure where I got this sudden motivation to just start moving forward with a bunch more things in transition, and tbh I'm not gonna question it, it's just really awesome to be making actual progress again!

submitted 61 days ago • 0 comments

I'd honestly forgotten how good it feels to come out to someone and be met with just pure support and positivity

submitted 62 days ago • 0 comments

Came out to not just one but two friends today! Both fully supportive and accepting! I'm gonna ride this high for a while 😊

submitted 62 days ago • 0 comments

OK, I'm visiting a friend in Cambridge, we're about to meet at the pub and I'm planning to come out to him this evening. Safe to say I am a bundle of nervous energy right now, but I know this is right for me and I'm going to do it!

submitted 62 days ago • 0 comments

OK, first full on session of laser hitting everything today, that was definitely an experience and not exactly one I'm looking forward to repeating in 4 weeks 😅

submitted 63 days ago • 0 comments

Being the only materials scientist in a group of mostly physicists I've reached a strange situation where by default I am apparently now the group's chemist

submitted 66 days ago • 0 comments

OK, I have to be honest, I wasn't fully sold on how much estrogen had actually for me, but looking at this side by side (3 months vs 8) I think it's pretty undeniable, subtle but it's definitely there, and yes I will be posting a ton of these for the foreseeable future

submitted 68 days ago • 0 comments

And possibly the best thing ever, I shared my progress with a friend and she called me Tamsin!

submitted 68 days ago • 0 comments

And ok, incremental progress made, went for the shortest walk around my street in Tamsin mode. Granted it was at night but it's still more than I've ever done, building up the confidence one tiny bit at a time!

submitted 68 days ago • 0 comments

Decided that if I want to properly bring Tamsin out this year, I need to start working on my confidence barriers, been chatting to a stylist about getting an actually decent wig and while I'm not big on it so far, I've started working voice training into my routine

submitted 69 days ago • 0 comments

Been trying out a few new things recently, mostly just adding a small amount of makeup and I really am starting to see the difference it's all making, still not where I want to be but happy to see I'm on the way!

submitted 69 days ago • 0 comments

Had a visit from my old PhD supervisor yesterday who I haven't seen since July, literally the first thing she said was "you look different" I still present as a guy at work, but it's nice to know that 8 months of estrogen actually has done something!

submitted 69 days ago • 0 comments

And I don't think I've really full on cried at a song for ages but this just had me in floods, it just perfectly captures where I am in this journey, I know I can do it! youtu.be/B0azMOJ-h_o?...

submitted 74 days ago • 0 comments

I told my best friend on new year's that this would be the year I bring my real self out into the world, and honestly I can already feel the shift. I'm not just wishing I could do things anymore, I'm actually going out and doing them, I'm deliberately taking action to be me and it feels amazing!

submitted 74 days ago • 0 comments

Very chill run around Radley lake, cleaned the flat, prepped food for the week and sorted some life admin. I feel like I'm coming out of this slump now, slowly but surely. Also made banana bread which is a great bonus!

submitted 74 days ago • 0 comments

After several months on this journey and a ton of self-reflection asking myself if things are actually me, I've come to conclude that yeah I'm going to stay the same nerdy engineer who likes cycling just as woman with a slightly healthier self image 😅

submitted 84 days ago • 0 comments

Going in for the first laser session this eve, nervous as hell but another step on the journey to being me!

submitted 85 days ago • 0 comments

Turns out it took seven months of estrogen and exploring presentation to help me find a sense of self-worth, gonna treat myself to some pudding now!

submitted 85 days ago • 0 comments

I've made something of a breakthrough today, I've always talked about doing something to make my life useful or meaningful and tried to get there through external validation but today is the first time I've been able to say to myself that I don't need to prove anything, I'm me and that's enough

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