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You know what's better than sex? Opening up to good therapist about things you swore you'd take to your grave. My therapist told me we shouldn't be ashamed of the things we comforted ourselves with when we were in the depths of our trauma. I haven't felt so clean in years.

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“You are imperfect, you are wired for struggle, but you are worthy of love and belonging.” Brené Brown You don’t have to be anything other than yourself to be lovable. 🧡 #love #kindness Picture by Katie Abey

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I don't know what is coming next when it comes to the world outside of my family but I do think that one day they'll look back on this time in history and they'll say "We must never allow this to happen again".

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I am grateful for my therapist. She's walking me through things I swore to myself I'd never tell anyone. I'm very grateful for her compassion and understanding when it comes to the damage from my past as it allows me to be in a better place to heal than I would be without that level of honesty.

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Walking around my neighborhood in NE Albuquerque...

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Albuquerque. New Mexico Westbound Paseo

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After good night's rest, I'm awake and feeling much less unnecessary. Looking forward to therapy, as it's going to be a continuation of last week's session. I'm asking my therapist for her help and advice on a very touchy matter and she asked for more time to talk about it. -Have a nice day!

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Haven't slept well the past few nights. I'm hoping for better results tonight. If you think my life as described here is a lonesome thing, you should check it out at 4am. Grateful I have therapy tomorrow. Going to try going screenless before bed, just need something to listen to. Good night.

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Went to the evening group at Unity Spiritual Center last night with Nikki and her family. It was nice to get to listen, the topic was transforming the world with love. Very metaphysical. I think I'll try attend more services there.

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My girl took me out for burgers, and now currently laying in her bed talking about life and love and mental health. Grateful for nights like tonight. Photo: the Western sky above Albuquerque just after sunset from the parking lot of the Range Cafe.

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I think I'll stop posting here on Bsky. My reasoning is that I'm posting about my struggles in life while everyone else is focused on politics. That means posts like this one are diluting the signal. Not being a distraction is something I control. I'll be around, just not in the way.

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One last thought for this morning: I came from beans and rice, I know what it's like to live without a heater in the winter with a house full of kids. We got by on less than nothing for so long- it wasn't easy but we got by. I don't know what's coming but I'm not afraid of beans and rice.

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Writing this down to help manifest it into reality. I have been isolated too long so if my girlfriend asks to come get me, I really need to do my best to just say ok. I don't need to overthink it. I just need to relax and enjoy what time we are given together. All I have to do is just say ok.

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Today I'm grateful that come what may, my family will always love me and support me and treat me with respect and dignity. I know that's a huge privilege that many others do not have. I'll always try to help out here however I'm asked, gratefully. Yes I have worry and doubt, but I'm not alone.

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I may have overdone it with my rearranging of my bedroom yesterday. It looks great, but I was pretty sore when I woke up this morning though. Grateful I can rest today, and for ibuprofen too.

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The backdrops for our wrestling figure collection have arrived! We think it looks great, makes the collection really pop. Total cost was ten bucks. #wrestlingfigures

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I'm working on a few different projects today, cleaning and reorganizing. Its been a stressful week, hoping that being busy will help my anxiety. Therapy after lunch, I've been looking forward to this session, as I've got some writing about the past to process. Hope everyone has a good day.

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Going from a pretty large following on my former social media platforms to barely any engagement at all on bsky reminds me a bit of a junkie getting meds to help with withdraw symptoms. The stray notification or two I get a day helps me see how addicted I was to getting likes and comments. 🧵

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The four year old has a doctor appointment today, she's nervous about it because she's probably getting a shot today, but her dad said if she's brave, they'll stop by Sonic on the way home. She's dancing around downstairs talking about milkshakes and onion rings. 🙃🙂🙃

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My sweetie came by to give me a hug and a smile so she could carry them with her through the rest of her day.

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My therapist suggested a few different writing projects to process my toxic past, but wow, it can be a lot. Still, taking a break from it just to doomscroll (which she has told me NOT to do) is such a bad idea. It only fuels my anxiety. I really should know better by now. Healing takes time.

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Not making any big plans tomorrow because the last two times got canceled, but I miss my gf so I invited her over after she gets out of tutoring. Seems like it's been months since I saw her, really it's only been a few days. Could use the morale boost a visit would bring.

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Rosie told me she had the best 4th birthday ever! So many new toys. My partner and I are rain checking on date night tonight, she isn't feeling well. I'll stay home with the family tonight, eat Frito chile pie and play some Fallout 4. I even saved my cake for tonight.

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Rosie's going to the salon then out for sushi. After that she's coming home to open gifts. I bet she's going to really flip for Mr. Play Doh Head! Later tonight Nikki is coming to get me, we'll grab some dinner and stay over at her place with an eye on going to Unity Church tomorrow. My Saturday!

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Today is my granddaughter's 4th birthday! Happy birthday, Rosie!

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Well it was late, and it got cold, but I still was able to give my beautiful and loving partner Nikki a living Waterfall Orchard and some Toney's Chocolonely on Valentine Day, and I got a hug and a kiss too, and a promise she'll come get me tomorrow for a much needed date night. Can't wait!

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I now believe my teenage obsession with punk rock was a manifestation of my undiagnosed autism. The sound overwhelmed my sensory integration disorder, slam dancing was a stim. The punks spoke truth to power, and reminded me I wasn't alone in being different. youtu.be/IifuWeg7JlQ?...

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Will you be my Valentine?

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I got my girl a living orchard in a cute little pot and a little slavery-free chocolate too, am trying to convince her to come give me a hug after she gets off work tonight so I can surprise her with it.

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I'm not a conspiracy theorist but I went to sleep last night and everything was normal and I woke up this morning and my YouTube algorithm suddenly thinks I'm a big classic rock fan. It's weird as hell, I haven't ever had this much shitty music on my feed. I dislike ALL OF IT. Make it stop.

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As for me and my girlfriend, we've decided that a good way to show our love is by deliberately not spending time or money on commercialized symbols like those stale chocolates in heart shaped boxes or an overpriced meal at a crowded restaurant. No plastic performative love offerings for us please.

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The day before Valentine's day. Maybe they should have a day for the broken hearted, for those suffering limerance and unrequited love, for those who've been betrayed and taken for fools. Everyone who's lonely should get chocolate too, you know. Not just those lucky in love.

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We discussed cultural anxiety and emotional algebra in therapy today. That I don't want to just be a ghost to my granddaughter when she's my age, but instead a guiding ancestor. We talked about being intentional with my time, and all the circles in my life, large and small. Good session.

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