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like getting discriminated against for hiring after 4 months of job searching, denied SNAP benefits, home internet shut off. Not really sure what else to even do at this point, I wanted that job too, I do exceptionally well in that type of role AND with a union. I feel devastated again, fuck

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I need every hiring manager who finds trans applicants weird to have a very, very bad day and a worse week. The prevalence of hiring discrimination is insane in general but especially toward trans women, I can't even imagine if I wasn't white. This is so fucked I hate this fucking system

submitted 5 hours ago • 1 comment

I have so little fucking hope left for my own prospects at having a normal life. It's been such a grueling process of nurturing and growing that hope just to have it cut and burned and stomped on again and again. Idk what the fuck to do anymore, I have nothing and no money like. Just fucked

submitted 6 hours ago • 0 comments

Im trying not to post as en emotional outlet but Im like almost positive I just got turned down for this job because I am trans. Like this was a perfect fit, I was perfectly qualified for the position and the care type given my past experience. She got so weird when she realized I'm trans though wtf

submitted 7 hours ago • 1 comment

I'm actually blown away how fucked this country is, like adding work requirements for medicaid and snap? Already two woefully bad and hard to access services for half-assed 'help' to those most vulnerable now being locked behind a job when we have 2008 recession level hiring rates. 1000% fucked

submitted 1 day ago • 1 comment

Just getting ready to go out I get so fatigued like I have so little energy since I got the flu in early january. Always some level of exhausted, I have so much less energy to expend then I've had maybe ever. Thankfully I have some ways to deal with that but it's really hard to deal with tbh

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Call me a garbage eater but. I enjoyed immensely the first 70hr playthrough of Fallout 4 and the same for Starfield. Now going back? Absolutely not, straight garbage. But damn does it hit the first time, like Mcdonalds fries, u just cant reheat them

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I love vyvanse but why am I sweating rivers when I take it wtf lol

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This is me sometimes

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The dolls do NOT claim Vivec, divine member of the Tribunal. But the picture where they spear kill Nerevar is a good try. The dolls have rejected Vivec as a shoddy derivation of Daedric god Mephala, the first Daedric doll

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I read all the elder scrolls and understood them and I'm fine I think I'm just really good at reading them without going blind. If I were in Vvardendell I'd have destroyed that meteor right away I'm just built different like that. Put me in elder scrolls and I'd have things sorted in a week easy

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When do I get a mech It would be easier to not have good healthcare if I could have at leastttt one mech suit All I need is a single mech and things would be looking PRETTY good let me tell u Let's just say I'd be doing a lottt less complaining if I had a few thousand pounds of exoskeleton to pilot

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I'm not very horny or motivated or like driven (?) at the moment. Kind of just existing, chilling atm. For once I've been able to not feel like shit just existing, that's been nice

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My one fucking rule with spiders is just not in my bed I am very reasonable like that. This cricket spider fuck has to go and trespass my one golden rule. May the wicked wrath of my judgement cast you down interloper. In reality I threw a book at it and I missed, but I did it like a paladin I swear

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It doesn't count i didn't get the shark myself my girlfriend just thought I could use some plushies to sleep with. It's different bc I didn't buy it myself I swear I promise

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I kind of fucked my hair up short term trying to get a cool queer haircut but I think once it grows about a week it'll look so good actually. Trust the process 🙏🙏

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Days like today remind me the value, the necessity of fighting the jaded, cynical bitterness that can come from struggle and difficult survival. Even though life is so difficult I will not let it ruin me, or take the softest parts of me, if it does than what was all this struggle even for?

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Was flipping through this cutesy cat book just now and read a quote "A cat is a small perfection" and yeah, that's right. I think my life would genuinely be a lot better if I had a baby cat to care for and love. Like a cat IS a small perfection that's just right. I've adored every cat in my life

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Seeing feckless radlib posting on here while due process and free speech as a constitutional right are being taken away is doingn psychic damage to me like. I need radlibs to wake the fuck up. The democrats don't care about anything and will let you get shipped to El Salvador holy fuck wake up

submitted 4 days ago • 0 comments

Kind of impossibly depressed. It was 6 of the worst months of my life into moving back 'home' here where I'm not welcome or wanted, I've applied for jobs since early january. I need a new pcp, a new psych, I need internet again outside out from my phone. And I'm so fucking tired, idek what to do

submitted 5 days ago • 1 comment

If I get this job, which I interviewed really well for despite having my interviewer be weird about me being trans, then things will be actually good. But I get the feeling that weirdness is, if there's another applicant, going to be the breaking point. If I don't get this job idk wtf I'll do

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I don't want to complain about anything ever again, I would fucking love to have things work out tomorrow so I can shut the fuck up about how things suck but like. I keep going at it and its just not budging. I so want to stop having things to complain about but that's not my decision it seems

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Shit is just completely fucked, in this country, in my life. Bc of my SNAP worker being incredibly difficult (and refusing to review my case in a timely manner) I can't even get food assistance like. Like I just don't know how to square that or make that okay my life is fucked up and I keep trying

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idk how to feel at 'home' or like okay at all, I experience being rejected from my own 'home' community here where I grew up, I have employers discriminating against me, I've been applying for work for 4 months with a recent long-term job like. I barely have anything and am not welcome. Wtf

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I have 1000% at this point experienced several instances of hiring discrimination at jobs that I was otherwise overqualified for, suited to and interviewed well for. It's consistently been that hiring managers are 'very excited' to meet me until they realize I'm trans. I fucking hate this shit

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I might get this job but regardless every single interview I've had they're very excited to meet me and noticeably shift entirely when we meet for the interview and they realize I'm trans. I think I interviewed well enough to get through that this time but why are people so weird about trans women

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It's been so hard to move back to a place that actively hates I exist. I try to stay positive, be kind and say hi to people, be warm and welcoming and am consistently treated as some 'other', at times an uncomfortable presence and other times even as a threat when I'm so nice. I hate this shit

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I consistently feel like I'm just not built for capitalism. I don't have that 'drive' for money, or for like success(?) There are things I want but they're mostly just having community, getting education in things I'm passionate about. It feels like I'm not well equipped at all for this system

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Just perpetually exhausted. I do almost nothing, get ready to go out and once I'm out I'm already so tired before I've done anything. Might be a health issue at this point I'm just exhausted with consistent good sleep, the right supplements, like I think it's health and toxic stress. Exhausting tbh

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There's a large part of me that, maybe to an unhealthy degree, feels a need to be understood. It's probably due to be so chronically, intentionally and neglectfully misunderstood through my life but like. I think sometimes I have to put less energy into having others try to understand me

submitted 6 days ago • 0 comments

Saving the remainder of what I have in the tank for this interview tomorrow, the job actually sounds perfect, it's something I'm great at and passionate about, is a union job and a really good position. Whatever I have left at this point is all going toward that tomorrow, I hope it works out

submitted 6 days ago • 0 comments

It's shocking, every once in a while I realize I'm gonna die and it kind of really sucks. It wasn't since I was like 8-9 I wanted to live until the last couple of years so like, I feel like I've only recently confronted wanting to live and knowing I will die one day. Kind of wild lol, I get it now

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Basically, and yeah some of it is a coincidence, since trump took office my life has fucking sucked. Of course it has had profound negative effects on me seeing neoliberals (predictably) immediately appease a real fascist movement but also things situationally have been rough, getting better though

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I have a mullet now, unintentionally lol. Maybe I'll take some pictures again if I can find the energy. Looks very queer. I've been looking very pretty with short hair just not taking pictures really. Being in survival mode makes that energy in low supply, hopefully i'll have more soon though

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Younger me would be happy to know I'm almost turning 28, for my child self 27 was the oldest I could ever see myself bearing to live. Despite the hell, the real hell I've experienced since transition I'm so, so happy to be here, HRT saved my life a thousand times over. We have to keep fighting ❤️❤️

submitted 7 days ago • 0 comments

Not sure what it is exactly but like, idk. Since I got really sick with the flu(?) (wasn't covid) in late january my energy levels have fallen to historic lows. I feel so chronically fatigued, and paired with insane poverty it doesn't give you a lot of energy. It's been very hard to deal with

submitted 7 days ago • 1 comment

Contrary to so much of my posting since I made this account (in an inpatient after being threatened at work for being trans lol) I am actually just very soft and sweet and thoughtful in ways I just haven't reflected on here. It's weird bc I see how one-dimensional online accounts can be now

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